it all started at home so idk if i wanna be there anymore, looking outside through the window at night is nice though, one of the only things that brings me some joy
people are unbearably social and happy energy around me nowadays, the vibe i bring is depressing and unnerving just find someone else to bother, reminds me when i used to be full of joy and happiness
when people try to help or talk to me about my issues it just bothers me or makes me feel incredibly uncomfortable, makes me think i prefer being completely alone sometimes
the friends i used to have i guess don't want to talk anymore and we haven't in a while, mightve been too distant idk. those were the last moments of joy ill have i guess