I miss you
I couldn’t stay friends with you after the breakup. Your texts were dry and maybe you were going through something you couldn’t tell me. Your roommate doesn’t like me bc she didn’t want to risk her home if you moved to my state like you said you’d do. I don’t blame her for that but it’s shitty. I still have the book you wrote years ago and the poem you typed up 7yrs ago. I still have the card you sent me for my birthday. Did you throw my stuff away? My letters? I sent you my favorite things. Small little trinkets that mean the world to me. Bc I knew we were forever. I miss your voice. I dreamt of you last night. I woke up smiling forgetting it’s been over a month since we last texted. I still struggle. I still think of you JD. Your beautiful face. Your laugh bc I’m so funny with my dad jokes. I know you need space too. You deleted your discord and blocked me everywhere. I know one day I won’t think of you when I open my eyes each morning. I know I’ll let go of the “what if’s” eventually. Seven years now. I ache and I yearn. And that’s ok. I love you jdkins. I wish you’d reach out to me again.