snapped out of it
new to reddit posting so bear w me, just wanted to share my experience ;;
i got into subs and NG 3 months back, and really wanted to manifest an sp. so i did all the popular methods (LOA, subs, affirmations), and basically saw him drift further cuz i heard "detachment and isolation works better" so i ghosted him (i dont know what i was thinking.) i would robotic affirm and try assuming i "had" him, omg thinking about it im so embarassed. felt like i was crazy, what got me further into this was i tried manifesting my grades, and i did well for a math test (my teach was so proud cuz i constantly failed ;boosted my trust in LOA) but now i realised it was because i was only good at that topic.
TT anyways, these few weeks i snapped out of it, realized it was going to lead me to solipsism and delusion. esp with people kept saying "you are source". tbh, the moment that made me realise was when i noticed i was scrolling through success stories and everyone was telling everyone to persist. that was my first warning. i then posted a question on how i should continue manifesting for my sp which i reposted to r/ nevillegoddardsp (cuz reddit suggested me too, ik, kinda dumb lul) and the mods rejected my post and just asked me to read up on NG and instill his learnings cuz "i was clearly doing something wrong" which felt so culty. anyways, its been difficult to break free from thinking this way, but js trying to actually live my life and have fun ^^
imo the only thing i got from this was just think confidently and you'll feel confident. Overall, this whole process just made me so mentally drained and done with thinking lmfao. now seeing my notebooks with the scripting and 369 methods make me cringe.