u/de_vil3

hellooo all. i am a first year student studying law.. my grades have been pretty good, with distinctions across all of my assignments so far! im very proud of myself for that.. however.. i just received my mark for llb140 (human rights law) and.. yeesh.
i passed. barely. 52%.
ive heard from friends that they were also pretty disappointed from their marks so im glad to know im not the only one.
i hold myself to pretty high standards and i study alot.. so seeing that grade rlly bummed me out. maybe i just got a tough marker (my feedback seemed pretty bleh. im not sure exactly what i couldve done better) but im not trying to absolve blame for myself.
how do u guys deal with this? i know the obvious answer is to just “get up and dust urself off and try again” or whatever but even with that mindset this sort of failure is still in the back of my mind. im really doubting my abilities here bc of this. pls help lol

hi there. im in a bit of a slump. and i need some advice. sorry if this doesnt read well. its early.

i begun writing my first novel at 16. scrapped my first draft about 20k words in because it was just terrible. absolutely terrible. then i begun writing my 2nd draft. ive been working on this draft for about two-ish years. im 130k words in (im a full time student so im a bit slow) and i want to restart again.

i just think i made the mistake of not planning enough. alot of what ive written needs to be greatly fixed or retconned. theres alot of plot holes. too many characters. too many themes im trying to grapple. and so on. im just not enjoying what im writing.

i know plenty of people say that its better to revise after a draft… but i just dont think that will work in my case. i need to cut out entire characters. i need to change the settings of most places. it needs so much work.

i want to restart. and i want to plan alot more before i start writing again. im pretty sure that will work for me, and having a better story outline will give me better direction and make me enjoy writing again.
has anyone else done this before? does it work? am i doing the right thing? i feel terrible for leaving what ive worked on for so long behind, but i feel its what i need to do. how do i grapple with this?