cheating marriage
my father has been cheating on my mother since always. It has always been an unfaithful marriage.
I have seen him going to frequent trips and inspections to different locations and we never know the actual cause.
Its me and my sister and my mother who stays together when he is off seeing other woman.
My father used to be my idol but then i discovered his doings and surprisingly they were since i was 7 or 8 years, i saw old mails that were the next day of my birthday!!!! it obviously broke me but what hurts more is
My mother- she gave her entire life to this fuckass family, she is soon turning 50 and did what? stayed housewife to raise her kids, to nurture the husband that has been cheating always.
When i see my mother doing chores daily i feel so sad and ashamed and guilty that i coulnt give her the life she deserved.
Ik she is my mother even if she wasn’t she is still the sweetest kindest soul out there and this is what she got?
She sacrificed her everything for this marriage and family and got cheated on.
My father is perfect as a father full respects for him being my dad
but as a man, he is the worse kind of man ever seen, which further makes me question the idea of men. Men are scary, men cheat, men cant be trusted, men cheat even jf their women sacrifices everything.
I was in a relationship and very insecure about him looking at other girls which eventually he did obviously. i feel ugly, a looser and cant put together my life
i want to give my mother the best life she deserves but i am still in my college.
I choose college in different city to escape witnessing cheating but i have to come back for vacations and it breaks me everytime i am here
i feel emotionally sad and i have so much academically going on in my life and i feel so so so struck.
it feels alone to go through everything alone, vented to chatgpt dont know how many times
just letting it out because i cant hold inside anymore