u/degenioropizza

Last time I went to the dentist, they disconnected part of my lower gums from my teeth. I have not been back since. They were concerned about gum disease and the sensitivity of my gums and teeth, however my teeth were doing alright until after that last visit😭. It has been noticeably deteriorating since. I switched to very soft bristled toothbrushes which has massively helped, but the past couple of weeks my teeth have felt worse, tingling and sort of painful. I have absolutely no idea what healthy gums look like, how bad this is, anything on that account. I brush at least once a day, usually twice. I use colgate bubble fruit toothpaste. I do not floss, I used to use the toothpick like flossers and it made my gums bleed everytime and hurt too much to continue. I am planning to get one of the stringier ones that wind up. None of these had been problems for me until after that last dentist visit. My gums would occasionally bleed when brushing my teeth, but that was because I would brush far too aggressively (a problem which has been fixed). I mean very, very aggressively. Any advice appreciated and welcome.

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been wanting a bowl for soo long and finally found one i really like. i’m so happy i love it so mucj

dinner: fuzzy caterpillar i found outside by my house

basically the title. i don’t mean to make him jealous whatsoever and im usually just venting but he gets quiet and i can tell i said something i shouldn’t have. the other day i was mentioning being uncomfortable in an environment where there 14 men and 2 women (me being one), and how i left early because of it. i felt that they were giving me weird looks, and it often comes across as predatory. i definitely read too deep into things sometimes, but the vibes just didn’t feel good.
i have a few coworkers who i ignore because of creepy/ weird comments they’ve made towards me, and whenever i tell him about these things, he just gets quiet and won’t respond to it until we’re on a different topic of conversation.
i don’t want him to be insecure because he’s the only person i want. sometimes i just need to talk about my feeling unsafe as a young alternative and feminine looking individual. i don’t have many friends to talk to about these sorts of things because he doesn’t like when i have friends either. it just sucks so bad to keep getting stared at or creepily touched by people in places i should feel safe, and to have him shut down when i mention it. i want to feel i can talk to my partner about anything, and i just don’t. he’s never asked me to stop, but his reaction makes it clear he doesn’t like to hear about it. it sucks.

i don’t think he cares about what they’re saying and doing so much as the idea i might be wanted by other people. i get being jealous but cmon man, you bagged a baddie and they want to stay in the bag! make it easier :/

he buys me food whenever i want, drives me around to places 2 hours away from him, does all my laundry (we don’t live together), gets me gifts all the time, super caring and receptive to my emotions, makes me feel safe etc but it just doesn’t feel right.

i want to love him the way he loves me but i can’t help look for other options. everytime im out im considering who would be better, sometimes i scroll dating apps that he doesn’t know i have. he never goes through my phone because he trusts me or some bs. when i make friends i can’t help but consider them instead, like what if they’re what im missing?

our bedroom life is so good, i wouldn’t mind if he became a cuck tho. he knows how i feel and says ‘i know you’ll get there one day, i am happy to wait. i am so lucky to even have you right now’. basically just gibberish and nonsense. he probably asked ai what to say before we talk.

i just don’t know what to do. i feel like i should end things now and save myself the hassle of having to be around him for even a few more weeks, but id like to have something else lined up. really been a mental battle these past 3 years. i’m worried too he might propose soon and i might say yes out of guilt

dinner: oversalted scrambled eggs and cream cheese bagels