Need to vent: regrets
Saw a lot of similar experiences from people here about feeling regret having the surgery, so I wanna share mine.
I got the surgery June 16th 2026, and the second I woke from the anesthesia I thought to myself 'what have I done to myself'. The pain was UNBEARABLE, the pain from the gas was something I haven't felt before and I straight up thought I was gonna die. Anyway that passed a couple days and a whole lotta complains later so that was cool.
Then came the issue of eating. When I was in pain it was no problem not to think of food but ultimately the moment was there, I needed sustenance. My mind wanted all of the good foods I had before the surgery but my body said big fat no. That hurts me physically but also mentally.
Physically because I don't yet recognize the new signal my brain receives when I'm full, it's different from before, one bite I'm fine and the next I feel like puking. So that sucks.
Mentally because I want to eat the insanely good food my husband cooks so bad, I wanna stuff my face with whatever. I have this wild craving for chips, candies, all the bad stuff. Headhunger is what my therapist calls it.
And oh my god an ice cold can coca cola I would straight up give up my left arm for that.
Currently feeling regret over all that bc I'm thinking that this will be my life forever, while logically knowing that's not true.
So yeah. Glad I found this subreddit and knowing I'm not alone ❤️