I hate being fat
I know we’re supposed to be body positive especially in a world where unrealistic and unhealthy bodies are pushed as the ideal standard and EDs are practically flaunted and encouraged in the media to the detriment of women, but Jesus Christ I hate being fat and I just want to complain about it for 30 seconds.
The sensory experience alone is hell nothing is ever comfortable nothing fits right you could have clothes tailored to fit your body and they still feel weird because they’re digging into and fitting around soft fat instead of sitting snug and nice. I hate that my body moves and jiggles when I move I hate that there’s so much of it I hate the feeling or rolls or how big my boobs are. I hate how hot and sweaty I feel all the time I hate how I don’t feel limber or move easily. I hate that it draws even more negative attention from society on top of being autistic.
If I could wave a magic wand and be a size 4 in the blink of an eye I’d do it in a heartbeat. I’ve lost quite a bit of weight in the past 3 years, but still have a ways to go and every time I kind of slack off and maybe gain 5 lbs around the holidays I swear I can just physically feel that difference and the sensory experience is pure hell.