Loneliness
I’m tired of being here. It’s been so many years and nothing really changes. I don’t have friends, and most days I just stay in my room,reading, watching movies, listening to music, and living vicariously.
I don’t think I’ve any social skills either.Palakkad feels quiet in a way that isn’t always comforting, there's a loneliness to it. People mostly work, come home, and rest. There aren’t many spaces to just spend time, meet people, or feel something new. For women, it feels even more limited.There are things I do like here. The rain, especially. And the feeling I get from books like Khasakinte Ithihasam, verukal or of mt's.I don’t want a city life,oh I hate cities. I just wish life felt a little more alive than this.