u/diditakemymeds

I don’t wear makeup daily, I only really wear it when I go to concerts now. I have smaller eyes, and shaky hands so I’ve never been good at eyeliner, or applying lashes. The times I’ve worn lashes, I feel like they just look odd? Like my eyes are almost too small, idk they look weird on me even when I’ve had other people apply them.

When I wear eyeshadow, it has to be brought up basically all the way to under my brows. There is a small space between the shadow and my eyebrows, but I think it looks odd!! I feel like whenever I wear makeup, I’ll try and add more blush, or do smudged waterline liner, but it all ends up looking like a natural look. I was successful one time with smudged wing liner, and it never happened again.

I have thinner lips and I feel like lip liner looks too fake on me but maybe I haven’t tried the right shade. My favorite lipstick is Velvet Teddy by MAC. I do love a good clear gloss over lipstick too. I have a lot of trouble finding the right shade of lip products for my skin tone.

I’m also not sure if my face makeup is too light? I use the Matte Fit Me Poreless foundation, an elf concealer, liquid blush and setting powder. I stopped using bronzer because I didn’t really like the look of it anymore, especially because I found out I absolutely love blush. I don’t like wearing a lot of product on my skin because I hate the heaviness feeling of having stuff on my face. I also have really sensitive skin / eyes like my nose runs and my eyes water when doing my makeup. I have a few concerts coming up and I just really would like to be able to nail a makeup look that I feel confident in and happy with. Thank you guys 🥹

Long story short, she thinks it’s CHS because I smoke. Not long lasting symptoms from C Diff. Even though my very infrequent vomiting, weight loss and loss of appetite started at my diagnosis in October.

She essentially said I could’ve just been a carrier and not actually had it. When I was the sickest I’ve ever been before. Yes the Vancomycin helped, I’m just still having on going diarrhea, painful bloating located to the left side and abdominal cramping. But I realized Ive had IBS since I was a kid, I didn’t start using cannabis until I was an adult. It was like as soon as I said I work at a dispensary and I smoke, everything possibly C. Diff related when out the window.

I’m not close minded to possibly having CHS, because I know it’s real, but when the *only* same two symptoms I have are nausea, and decreased appetite, that started in late Sept. - October. When I first tested positive. My nausea isn’t only in the morning, the last time I vomited was after getting home from an insanely shitty experience getting a CT scan the first week of April. The vomiting was never on a regular basis, intense, or chronic. It didn’t even last longer than two minutes.

I had to fast around two hours before my appt time - I was pretty nervous the morning of, and I’ve had trouble eating when nervous my entire life. I remember trying to eat before tests or performances in my childhood but being too worked up to eat more than a few bites.

She also recommended I seek treatment for an ED, which I’m not opposed to but I had been in trauma therapy for a while then my therapist had to take a LOA unexpectedly, so my therapy just completely stopped and I haven’t been able to get help from other therapists.

I’m sorry if this post isn’t allowed, mods feel free to remove if not appropriate. I just feel really gaslit and not listened to honestly because I’ve been having stomach issues since my childhood, and they’ve just amplified since I got sick last year.
I had salmonella a couple months prior to C. Diff and when I mentioned this she kind of insinuated that they aren’t related, and don’t have anything to do with one another which I know they don’t really, so she doesn’t think that has to do with how Ive felt since. But I do feel like it’s almost common sense that if I’ve had IBS since *childhood* (as a baby I could only have one specific kind of formula because everything else made me sick) and it’s gone untreated *this whole time* (I’m 28) having salmonella and C diff a couple months apart, would probably have at least a few longer lasting effects.

But no, I smoke weed at night so that’s the reason for all my issues I guess.