Sometimes when I listen to songs about depressed, loneliness, or even addiction, they can make me think about how I view my AvPD. What are some songs that do that for you?
I've spent the last 15 yrs in a safe routine and pattern of self isolation and escapism to try to avoid my feelings, and embrace an illusion of normalcy. I've been delivering pizza and my store recently closed down, I was transferred to another store, and even though I'm doing the same job, I feel out of my comfort zone. I'm dealing with my negative symptoms more, I've become more anxious, more dependent, and more aware. Met someone I click with for the first time in a very long time, and all this has caused me to kinda spiral. I want to fix the damage this isolation has done to my life. I want to overcome my addictions and escape mechanisms before I cause irreparable damage to my life and my health. I want to explain myself to the people in my life so they don't take how I am personally, or cause anyone anymore hurt than I may already have. I feel like I need to do it all as quickly as possible or else I'm a failure, and I'm going to be screwed, idk. Any advice or resources that might help me navigate this would be very much appreciated.
So I was transporting a panda back to my base, and when I got to land I realized I lost them. So I swim back and find them swimming in the middle of the water by themselves, and I'm like, where's my boat?! I craft a new one, get them back aboard and started heading out again. I get attacked by a drowned, look down, and there's my boat. Next thing I know, my second boat starts sinking. Don't know how it happened. I didn't pull it down with the lead, there was no drowned with a trident, no bubbles, no magma block. Just gonna say the panda was too heavy, lol.
So I'm on 15w40a trying to get a mending-infinity bow, and I fished up an enchanted book with no enchantment. Will this stay like this, or will updating my version mess it up?