I am a total bum. Please help me get disciplined.
These days I am truly learning the definition of "you can either be your own best friend, or your worst enemy". The only thing holding me back from my true potential is my biggest opp, myself. Allow me to explain.
As a child, I was smart and in accelerated classes and programs, often bragging about how I never studied and still got As. Everyone coddled and praised me and I never faced criticism because I never did any wrong. But I also grew up in a bubble, raised by tiger parents, who never allowed me to do any wrong- or anything I wanted to do ever . As a result I grew into an adult who doesnt know how to work hard for what they want, or how to properly have social interactions, who has minimal financial literacy and freedom, and who lives in fear of rejection and risk taking.
I'm 25F, living at home with said tiger parents still, unemployed for 6 months now from being let go at a high stress sales job, and in this time of joblessness I have done nothing to help better myself. Part of it is surely depression, anxiety, and burnout. But it gets to a point. I'm sick of living this way and very frustrated because childhood me would be so disappointed in who I've become. Everyones former precious smart successful girl has no aspirations and no career outlook, and no desire for anything except to play videogames all day.
I despise leaving the house because I'm tempted to spend money, or eat out, or interact with people against my will. I've gained 10 lbs already because of this new inactive lifestyle. I've never enjoyed exercise or the gym anyway, but now that I dont get out much its really showing. I like taking walks at parks but thats been ruined for me because I'm a solo female (no friends to go with me). I want to better myself, and I make to do lists and plans and often know exactly what I SHOULD be doing, but can't bring myself to do anything. And the cycle continues.
Apologies for the long post, being concise isn't a strong suit. If you are reading this, please give me some tips, tricks, words of encouragement, roasts even! I just seriously need discipline in my life. TY.