u/dreadful_dork

I'm 18M and a trader ( still struggling ). I can't talk to anyone or any of my school friends about my career or what's happening in my life - I've to keep everything to myself and I can't keep friendships for long enough. It hurts but I don't know how to channelize or remove the hurting feeling and I wanna know what is that thing that's hurting me to the core - is it the struggle or is it the feeling of having no one to tell about the struggle and hardships. Advice from someone who has escaped this web of regrets would help