Could it be vaginismus?
Hello lovely people, I need your help...
I'm really frustrated. First of all, I am a 25 year old virgin with no experience at all. I sometimes try to masturbate but I'm too afraid of the upcoming feeling that I always stop myself. I can only insert one finger and inserted a tampon only once in my life. If I did it correctly is questionable because I hated the feeling while moving around. I once went to the gynecologist and they had to stop using their tool immediately because it hurt too much for me and I don't think it was even inside. I never had a boyfriend I did these things with. When I try inserting a second finger it really hurts and I can feel a kind of "ring" around my fingers. And also it kind of feels like I have to shit but I really don't have to. Because of the pain I stop again (and also I don't want anything to tear or shit myself lol). This is really so frustrating because I always imagined sex'n'stuff as something that's fun and now I'm simply afraid that I'm not functioning... So my question is, am I just a cowardy virgin and will it be easier with a boyfriend or could it really be vaginismus? I would like to emphasize that I'm a very anxious person so maybe it's just that? Ahhh