After your pet passes, do you believe they stay with you forever or do you believe they move on and see you when it’s your time? Or do you believe they move on but still stay with you forever? I pray she is with me forever but also in peace. What are your thoughts on what happens when they pass? I need some comfort over this.
My baby girl died on June 26. My soulmate, I slept with her for the 9 years she was alive. Everynight, even when I went to my boyfriends house, she came. The past week I have been sleeping with my mom, and then my boyfriend when I have went to see him. I decided to finally go to my bed tonight, to feel closer to her, and maybe ill have a really good dream with her visiting me. I want to cry but I can’t. I miss her so much, my body yearns for her on a different level. I feel such sadness but cannot let it out. I felt extremely nervous to do this all night. I thought i would be bawling my eyes out, but i cant and i dont know why. I wish she was here. I would do anything to have her back. I feel her absence and it’s created a huge void. My baby didn’t deserve this, I didn’t deserve this. I pray she is with me and knows how much I truly love her.
I remember the first day I saw her clear as day. I was 16 years old and just came back from a month long trip in Europe for the summer. I asked my dad just to go to the pet store just to look. She was in one of these little glass puppy pens. She climbed over all the other dogs just to get everyones attention. You could tell from then she was going to be a little trouble bug. The second I laid eyes on her I knew she had to be mine. The way she looked, the way she acted, the way she smelled. I had to have her. I begged my dad, I cried til he gave in. She was mine. Ever since then she was by my side every single day. 9 years later shes my companion, truly my soul dog. She follows me everywhere, when I come home she flies off my bed to come greet me and does not leave my side, before I go to work or go out to do something a dog isnt allowed, I kiss her goodbye and tell her I will see her later. I take her on walks and hikes all the time. She drives with me to my botfriends and hangs out with us on the weekends, and then back home. She is apart of every aspect of my life. Everything I do I think about how it’ll effect my time with her. Like with my school program coming up, I think about how last class will end at 3 and how I could go to the gym after and spend the rest of my day with her, like how when I finally get my set career, how long she would be alone at home from the time my boyfriend leaves for work and the time I get gome when we eventually move in together. Everything revolves around her, especially my future. Shes so unique and has so many funny quirks about her that ive never seen in any other dog. I could write for years about the things she does and never run out of anything to say. Shes 9 years old, shes the healthiest one can be.
June 25th, 2026. Shes breathing weird, it’s not right, I know my girl and I know theres something wrong. Shes brought to the emergency room. Aspiration pneumonia.
Aspiration pneumonia is a lung infection caused by inhali mg a foreign liquid such as liquid, food, saliva, vomit. Best case scenerio, water, worst case scenario, vomit.
We caught it early, it’s barely noticeable on the xray, but it’s there. 80% chance of survival. It’s looking good. She will be okay, shes put on oxygen and immediately treatment has begun. The next morning a call is received. Shes acting her self, everytime a worker walks by she gets up and wags her tail. She eats a full bowl of food and drinks a full bowl of water. Shes not much better but shes definitely not worse. 630 pm hits. A call is recieved, she has went into respiratory failure and her heart stopped, they tried cpr but too much blood was coming out of her mouth. A freak accident took my healthy baby. My baby angel has passed away. I am devastated.
June 26th, 2026. My life will never be the same. I can’t truly put into words what I feel. Everytime I think about her my heart drops and I cry for hours. I truly thought i would have atleast 6-8 more years with her. When I think about how I will never see her again or touch her or feel her, I get this horrible feeling in my body I can’t explain. The only way I can explain it is of a yearning sensation but 1000x worse and more painful. I feel her absence everywhere. Nothing feels the same, nothing feels right. It’s so dull, quiet and empty without her. My baby girl is gone and ebery aspect of my life has changed and feels different. The thought of eventually being okay and not being in so much pain anymore devastates me even more, it’s like I’m losing that last bit of her. It makes me sad to think I will be okay. I hate thinking about how eventually itll be one month, 6 months , a year , 10 years. I hate this. I don’t even want to get another dog at any point because when I die I want it to be just her greeting me. I keep envisioning her in everything we used to do and it kills me, like when I drive through the neighborhood I see myself walking her and I break down. Theres so many things I feel and can say but nothing will ever explain how I truly feel. I miss my baby and as much as I like to be alive, a part of me wishes I could be where she is. I pray she stays with me forever, I pray for signs, I pray she visits me in my dreams and never stops. I pray she is resting in peace.
I feel like noone understands, I feel like everyones already over it and expect me to be too. I hate this feeling.
Thank you to those who took the time to read and respond.