u/eddi_loves_cats

I don’t really have anyone to tell about this but I’ve just hit six months clean after continuously harming for 7 years. This is the longest I’ve ever been clean before in my life.

I genuinely never thought I could quit or get this far in life without harming myself, I relied on it heavy as my only way of control.

I’m incredibly proud. I think this is the first time all of my wounds have fully healed and properly scared, not stuck in that awkward red phase. It’s all white now and I don’t know it just feels like I’ve accomplished the impossible.

Hi, I’m sorry but I didn’t know where else to post this. Ive been harming for 7 years now, started in 2019, and I’ve almost hit 6 months clean which will be my longest streak since 2021. I’ve been completely fine for the last two months, hardly any temptation, and any thoughts went away as fast as they came. But now that I’m only 10 days away from six months it seems like I’m struggling harder than ever. Maybe it’s just stress or a bad week, but I’m honestly so scared of relapsing. This is the first time in years I haven’t had any fresh wounds on my body, everything’s completely healed and scarred over, and it should feel brilliant. Instead, it feels like im just waiting for the inevitable: giving up and starting the cycle all over again. But I really don’t want to. Does anyone have some actual tips? Good ones? I’ve tried all the elastic bands and ice cubes ect, but I think I just need something to change my mentality. I dont know.