3 years after a bad edible trip and I still didn’t come back from it
3 years ago I took a small piece of this weed brownie, I had a huge panic attack that lasted hours and I saw some very horrible things -that night something inside me broke, physically and mentally.
I live abroad far from my family and it’s been 4 years I don’t go there because I’m scared of flying or taking the train, tunnel eccetera I missed also my grandparents funerals.
This bad trip scared me so much that now I live with OCD, chronic anxiety, panic attacks, depersonalisation, fear of dying, palpitations, chronic gastritis and lots of other symptoms. I’m also not able to work anymore.
I tried therapy few times but didn’t work, I want to try antidepressants but having health OCD I’m scared they’ll kill me. I mean I’m even scared of taking paracetamol…
I’m desperate and I feel like I’m in a cage.