u/elias_2498

I know that, in the end, I'm the only one who can answer this question, but I’d still really appreciate some kind of benchmark or advice. I’ve been asking myself this constantly over the last few days. I’m still not 100% sure, but overall, I do think I'm trans. Even though I’m not always fully convinced myself and constantly second-guess everything, I still feel like I probably am.

Does that mean my egg has cracked? Because you’re supposed to be completely sure of it, right? The thing is, I feel like I can't even be 100% sure right now because I'm way too restricted in terms of expressing myself, and everything is just taking way too long.

I really want to try out the next steps, but for example, my hair just won't grow as fast as I want it to. I also can't really make my body look more feminine without HRT, and since I still live with my parents, I can't truly explore things anyway. How am I supposed to ever feel sure like this?

Also, can I get some GGD please (Nova, She/Her)? I think that would distract me a bit from overthinking all of these thoughts constantly.

I think about being trans basically 24/7, and honestly, I want to be trans. But at the same time, I often feel like I’m just faking it or that I can’t "actually" be trans.

My feelings change constantly. There are moments where everything clicks and it feels 100% right, but then there are days where the doubts hit so hard that I convince myself this is all just a mistake and that I’m completely wrong.

With my close friends, I’ve started using female pronouns and the name Kate. And honestly? It feels amazing and so right. But when it comes to the physical stuff, like medically transitioning, I get so scared. But at the same time... I absolutely cannot picture myself growing older and living my future life as a man. That thought feels wrong too.

To make it worse, I barely experience physical dysphoria, which makes me doubt myself even more. It feels like I’m stuck in the middle, and this constant confusion is exhausting.

Does anyone have any advice on how to get more clarity on this? How do I make sense of all these doubts?

Thanks for reading<3