I made this artwork to represent the passing of time (and being caught in the wake-work-sleep-repeat cycle), but I've been told it looks more like a flag :D
What do you think, does it make a good accidental flag?
It took us almost 30 hours to arrive in New Zealand by flight, with 2 layovers along the way.
During the shuttle bus from Auckland Airport into the CBD, the first thing I noticed was how green, sunny and beautiful everything looked. The next thing I noticed was how exhausted I felt.
Although it was early afternoon here, my body and mind were ready for a good night's sleep. It would take a little while for my internal clock to catch up...
As my body slowly adjusted to the new time zone, I realised how difficult it was for my mind to keep track of what day it was. Was it noon? Or was it is midnight? Should I be waking up, or getting ready for sleep? The days felt like nights and the nights felt like days. Somehow both were blending into each other in a continuous cycle.
In the midst of my daze, I had a weird thought. I realised this wasn't the first time I'd felt that sensation. In fact, I'd been feeling it for months.
For a while my life has felt like a cycle: I wake up in the morning, go through the motions at work, then head right back to bed in the evening, only to repeat everything the next day. Each day has just blended into the next, and the days have gone by in the blink of an eye. It's almost scary to think about how quickly life has been slipping by without me noticing it.
I can't believe it took flying across the world for me to come to that realisation. I was so caught in the day-to-day and had gotten used to the way things were, like a fish in water, I barely registered what was happening around me.
I don't want life to just pass me by. I don't want to wake up one day and wonder where all the time went. But unless I change the way I live, that's exactly what'll happen. What I need to do is to slow down and actually appreciate my surroundings.
Although I'm jet lagged and dizzy, I want to start by reminding myself how extremely lucky I am to be able to take some time off to travel with my partner, and that I don't want to take that for granted.
And I promise to enjoy and remember each day that we have together.
Something feels tangled up inside my body. And any attempt to fix the issue only causes the wires to get even more knotted up.
At night I lay in my bed in the dark. I’m exhausted, but can’t seem to fall asleep. All I can do is think about my worries, anxieties and fears.