Terrified of miscarriage, need some words of support
Hi all, this isn’t my first rodeo, I had my daughter who is the light of my life in 2024. I experienced a chemical pregnancy the month before I got pregnant with her which made me quite anxious during the pregnancy but luckily I was healthy and had 0 complications during. I did have a traumatic labour (as many first time mums also experience) but I recovered well apart from a slightly weakened pelvic floor. I had post partum depression early on but that also resolved and now 2 years on, finally feel we’ve got the hang of parenthood. At the end of last year I got pregnant by chance (I was still breastfeeding and we weren’t planning it) but we were happy, unfortunately discovered the heartbeat had stopped at an early pregnancy scan at 8 weeks. It then took a further 4 weeks for me to miscarry naturally. The whole thing really took a toll on my mental health and I felt like my hormones were all over the place. We decided to start trying again in April and I got a positive test on 14 May (so last week). It was incredibly faint but I knew I was early so didn’t worry. It’s now been about a week and I’ve took pregnancy tests every other day to see if the test is getting darker and while it’s now a clear positive I’m so worried that the lines are still much lighter than the control and aren’t progressing as they should be… possibly suggesting low hcg and another miscarriage on the cards. I also don’t have any symptoms, which I find really worrying considering I did each time I’ve been pregnant in the past.
I know the anxiety isn’t healthy and I’m trying to think positive but I also can’t escape that this doesn’t feel right and I’m terrified of miscarrying for a third time and what this might mean for my fertility.
Any similar stories or words of advice?