u/ennyekal

Hi, all. Mostly just checking in because a few minutes ago a friend slammed on their brakes with me in the car and i’m afraid of another concussion (seatbelted, but still, scary)

Anytime something like this happens, i get freaked out to the max. Adrenaline spikes, and a sudden doom feeling and everything that accompanies that.

I don’t know what is enough force to concuss me at this point, but i’m terrified that this is one of those things. Does anyone else experience this? All I know is right now i am terrified 🥲😭

my body is not my own
i notice it now more than ever
6 months since my mind slowed
and i’m buried under the pressure

can’t waste my time hoping it’ll get better
or following ridiculous rules to the letter
if i could i’d wake up, reset the clock
but i can’t breathe, im in a deadlock

my body is not my own
i think im stuck like this forever
time will pass, i can’t postpone
how could i even measure?

i’ve spent so much time wanting to go back
hoping and wishing for a redo
but what’s the point, i’ve already braced for impact
i’m nothing if i’m not what i’ve gone through

Hello, all. I posted here yesterday because my PCS has been worsening (i start vestibular therapy next week, i am 8 months post original injuries where i sustained 2 concussions in 6 weeks)

My job is very high demand (MH crisis work, lots of screens, high cognitive load, work environment is also extra stressful) and i’m trying to figure out if i need a leave of absence or modifications.

Symptoms seem to flare with screen time, stress, thinking too hard, bright lights, the whole 9. I don’t think i am allowed to take FLMA yet, but TDI may be an option. My dilemma is: i need the rest but losing the structure would be detrimental to my mental health. the 4 days i’ve had to take off made me feel insane and it’s also the only place i get socialization these days, but i don’t want to push myself further into a flare.

i keep spiraling about how even simple activities could keep me in a flare and i’m really afraid to be living like this. i don’t want to leave work, but not improving with opening rest any longer and really struggling. i can’t even crochet without getting flared 😭

Hello, all. I posted here yesterday (link attached) because my PCS has been worsening (i start vestibular therapy next week, i am 8 months post original injuries where i sustained 2 concussions in 6 weeks)

My job is very high demand (MH crisis work, lots of screens, high cognitive load, work environment is also extra stressful) and i’m trying to figure out if i need a leave of absence or modifications.

Symptoms seem to flare with screen time, stress, thinking too hard, bright lights, the whole 9. I don’t think i am allowed to take FLMA yet, but TDI may be an option. My dilemma is: i need the rest but losing the structure would be detrimental to my mental health. the 4 days i’ve had to take off made me feel insane and it’s also the only place i get socialization these days, but i don’t want to push myself further into a flare.

Hello friends. TLDR 2 concussions in 6 weeks (june + august) and some other bumps and jolts along the way that were not confirmed concussions.

I am utterly beside myself. I’ve been in referral hell for the last 8 months, and finally seeing a vestibular PT next week after getting fed up waiting for my physiatrist (appointment at the end of June)

My symptoms have been on and off, with eye strain + nausea + dizziness being the worse with occasional headaches. Usually, i’ll have a bad day and be fine the next.

However, on Wednesday last week a flare started that has not ended and i am so scared. I work with computers and screens all day long and i can’t not work, so im of course distressed. The symptoms I am experiencing are pretty constant headaches (3/10), nausea associated with the strain and occasional dizziness. I had to take 3 days off of work, but i cannot afford to keep missing work. The strain starts any time i’m near a screen or driving and can sometimes improved when i am less stimulated. Nothing I have tried is working to help me improve, and im really scared I’ll always be like this.

I have been pretty against meds, but im considering starting amitryptiline to see if that will help with my nervous system at all. I’m feeling pretty hopeless and (of course) spiraling. I know that’s not helping my nervous system either, it’s just truly never been this bad. i’m also scared that VRT won’t help and i just. i’ve never felt this bad and i don’t know what to do. Could this be associated with my cannabis use?? I had a pretty heavy use week after not smoking for a while because i thought it was helping with symptoms but after stopping i am feeling much worse.

any advice is welcome, i am really really scared and feel alone in this