I'm travelling and think I should have stayed home.
I just need advice from anyone who might have been in the same boat.
I was concussed in March and have worked with a physio, occupational therapist and a psychologist on my recovery. I left from NZ to Europe on July 16th and I genuinely thought I was recovered enough.
I am at Tomorrowland which is a huge festival and such an amazing opportunity, its really hard to get tickets to. I went a bit too hard on Thursday night and didnt sleep very well. I spent most of Friday crying and just stressed and anxious. I feel so homesick (this is not my first time doing this exact trip and I was fine last time in 2024. I had the time of my life).
I have some anti-anxiety medication that I take for flying, I took some yesterday (Saturday) and went into the festival and I did have a really good time, didnt drink and tried to get a decent sleep. However it is Sunday now and we have one more night of the festival, its the biggest night and I am just feeling really unbothered about going. My anxiety and depression are so bad post concussion. If I have to take anti anxiety meds to enjoy myself should I just go home?
We have another festival in two weeks time in budapest and the artists that are performing are so so good! Some of my favourite artists. I don't want to miss out but is it worth it if I am miserable?
I have enjoyed other aspects of my trip prior to the festival buuutt I am finding everything a lot more stressful than prior trips I have taken. Like I am stressing about money and time and everything. But I don't want to cut my trip short if I can push through. I am so torn.
TLDR: I'm travelling internationally and my post concussion anxiety and depression are really bad. I think i want to go home but I also don't want to miss out on opportunities, who knows if I will be able to make this trip happen again?