IGCSE results
disclaimer this is going to be a rant.
when i was waiting for results i gen was expecting the worst thing possible, i was expecting a U on my add math cus i failed both my add math mocks, and cus the chem p4 v2 i did was genuinely such an awful paper and i felt my physics papers were terrible. but ME personally i was happy when i saw my results and all my friends were happy and praising me too for this, but my parents reaction is making me hate myself so much. at first my mom was so happy when i face timed her abt the results, tho my dad wasn’t pleased, but now their reactions have become more aggressive and displeasing and they’re just so bipolar abt it. i dont come from a lot of money so they were expecting me to a get a scholarship for my schools sixth form, which i did get a 50% scholarship for these results, but even with this percentage of scholarship they were and still are so mad at it, they’ve been drilling my head abt this and its been making me feel so depressed and ive just been crying non stop from all this degrading and un-appreciation by them. they are telling me so many “if if” scenarios like omg if u didnt take add math this wouldn’t have happened u should have studied more u should have taken islamiya why are u like this and etc. these results even got me in my schools top achievements list and they’re still not pleased by it. i genuinely feel like absolute sh!t bcus of this i feel horrible and awful about all this, im even willing to beg the school increase the percentage of the scholarship to get this nagging off my head. they made a happy day for me become one of the worst days of my life and i genuinely can’t do this anymore.
idk what posting this would do but i rlly needed to let this all out and im praying this gets better before it hits an extreme toll on me.