Club Rats Chapter 25 (for real this time): Mirrors
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Bryce found the mirror that night.
She and Lidia were in the Archives until their candles had burned out, morning birds already singing by the time they’d made their way to bed. Bryce had laid there for over an hour, tossing and turning while her mind churned faster than the sea.
Hours of research had yielded nothing, only trivial mentions of the demons she needed to slay. Fifteen thousand years on this planet, and hardly anyone had bothered to document the Princes. It was as if a magic bubble of ambivalence kept them out of public discourse altogether.
Fifteen thousand years of separation between this world and theirs, and she’d managed to undo it all with one desperate decision.
She wondered if that’s what happened to Theia. If perhaps she didn’t start out as an egomaniacal conqueror, but her moral compass slowly crumbled away through a series of well-intentioned poor choices that dug her grave deeper and deeper until she couldn’t see beyond it. Until it was too late to turn back. Until those choices were all that was left of her.
Did she truly find joy in destroying all those mortal villages, or had she struggled to sleep at night, haunted by their faces? Maybe they were faceless like in Bryce’s dreams, identities lost like pawns in someone else’s war, never to be found again.
We were here.
Bryce finally decided sleep had eluded her for the night when Lidia’s soft snore echoed through the wall adjoining their rooms, tiptoeing down the steps and into the humid night. She hadn’t thought much of where she was going, pausing only to sling Godslayer over her shoulder and tuck an extra handgun in her waistband before she ended up on the roof. She’d had the trellis put in last fall, which was now overflowing with jasmine that got in the way of her impulsive and annoyingly difficult climb.
The roof was flat, edged with stone that showed centuries — no, millennia of sun-bleaching. She’d brought an old iron café table from the Gallery, imagining that someday she and Hunt would be dining at it while they watched the sunset, planning for their future. She swallowed down the image, yet another dream that would never come to pass. Beside the table was a colorful wide chest made of stained glass.
Bryce took out the blankets lining the chest, shaking the dust off of them and layering them into a pile in the middle of the roof. She bunched up the last one to use as a pillow, reclining against it to finally gaze at the sky.
The stars were breathtaking. They danced and glimmered so bright it was almost blinding. There were rich colors sweeping behind them, deep ambers and violets swirling through the midnight cobalt to create a magnificent galaxy. No light pollution rose from the land to filter out the depth and abundance of those stars, the sight of them settling a deep unease within her. Each twinkle was a like greeting, a reminder that she was not alone. We see you. We know you. We are you.
This view was the best part about Avallen. At least besides the flying horses.
She sighed at the immensity, keeping her eyes locked on the endless starlight while she fished around in her bra for the mirthroot she’d stocked earlier. She lit it cautiously, taking extra care to not burn holes in the antique, highly flammable blankets beneath her.
Maybe coming here had been a mistake. She’d been so certain that Avallen was the best place to look for answers, but maybe she’d been naive to assume Helena would bother leaving behind any clues for her descendants to find. At least beyond the ones that centered her own powers.
Who has the time to write a dissertation on Hel when they’re busy carving an entire cave system with their own story?
Bryce groaned, taking a deep drag. The sky was so utterly dark — the kind of blackness that was so deep it hurt her eyes. The kind that made even a hint of light glitter and shine like a beacon in the endless void, the perfect backdrop for the brilliant display of starlight gleaming above her.
And the moon — it was just a sliver tonight, soft enough to allow the stars to dominate. A perfect crescent hanging low over a sleeping city, one which resembled the home world of the fae far more than this one. One filled with hateful people who despised Bryce for interrupting their endless privilege — and those who had been deeply abused by that privilege, to whom the beauty of these lands was no more than an illusion. A prison. The surrounding waters but a vicious, unforgiving corral to keep them isolated.
She had vowed to do everything in her power to make things better, to help right these ancient wrongs. And she had tried, even if it turned out that everything in her power didn’t amount to shit.
The mirthroot took the edge off her simmering rage, her veins growing so hot she worried she might boil alive. But it wasn’t fire she felt when she considered the obligations she had vowed to fulfill, both to the Ocean Queen and to herself.
It was ice cold fury, a chill like hoarfrost that stung to the bone.
Bryce smoked and stargazed well into the night, finding a strange mixture of solace and commiseration in the emptiness of the world. Her brain meandered the more she smoked, wondering if the moon keeping her company was the same one hanging outside Azriel’s window. The same one watching over Nesta during her nightly training, or illuminating Elain’s masterful garden. She hadn’t thought to pay attention while she was there, but from what she remembered, it looked about the same. But how could it be? How far away were they?
She couldn’t help but wonder how Azriel was doing — if he could think or feel anything while he slept. If he dreamed. She hoped his brain was finally quiet, allowing him a rare moment of blissful calm while his body healed. Bryce had the feeling he didn’t get nearly as many of those as he needed, especially with all his spymaster duties.
Did he ever know peace? Or were his shadows constantly chattering away in his ear, always forcing him to surveil the world around him instead of living in it? She’d certainly added to that noise this last week.
She grimaced, images of the Depth Charger slipping from the mental tomb in which she’d tried to lock them away.
Hunt lives. End of story.
Bryce ground her teeth and shot upright, suddenly needing to get off of this roof. She needed to do something — anything.
She didn’t plan on going to the Cave of Princes. She didn’t plan anything, really, except to move long enough to outpace her own thoughts. But here she was, a mere insect compared to the mammoth opening before her. Azriel’s golden dagger still gleamed bright against her leather-clad thigh. While stiff from lack of wear, the leathers were surprisingly comfortable, even with the late summer heat casting a dew of perspiration over her skin.
She’d had enough sense to take some flashlights from the Ocean Queen’s armory, a decision she was especially grateful for as she trudged through the pitch-black caves, too drained to rely solely on her star. The only sound aside from her clumsy footsteps was the steady, lulling drip of water leaking somewhere deep in the tunnel. Bryce shivered, spreading the beam of her flashlight wider while the shadows enveloped her.
The air in the cavern was frigid enough that she could see her breath, even without any of the black salt in her system. All the hairs on her skin raised at her proximity to Hel, terrified to inhale too deeply lest the airborne particles send her hurtling right into their clutches, even as each step drew her closer to the very cavern where she and Hunt had visited them all those months ago Allegedly, they couldn’t hurt her while she traveled that way, but at this point, who knew if that was even the truth? If there even was a reliable truth to know anymore?
Honestly, she didn’t know if she cared anymore either way.
She followed the trail of violence etched in stone all the way to the sarcophagus blocking the hidden stairwell. It took considerable effort to move on her own, but she certainly wasn’t going to let a heavy slab of stone deter whatever this mission even was. She had to brace her back against it, squatting low and pushing through her heels to slide it far enough for her to crawl past while she panted from the exertion.
The room was empty save for the black ewer bowl in the center of the room, shattered remains of its accompanying jug still scattered about. Her eyes followed the flashlight roaming the rock walls, looking — searching for any kind of clue.
There was nothing in this godsdamned room.
She considered drinking the salt water just for the Hel of it, but some primal instinct — the kind that still cared enough to keep her alive for the time being — held her back.
But then why was she here?
She let out a long sigh, squatting low and holding her head in her hands. She’d been so sure, her starlight seeming to agree as she’d edged closer to this moment — and now, there was nothing but walls.
Walls.
Miles of rock, which had been carved up by a cruel artist’s hand. A mural and a record. If the original history becomes warped or parts lost to time… here it is, etched in stone.
She scrambled back up the staircase. Her vision narrowed on the first of the cave portraits, drawing her in like a moth to a flame as she studied its textured surface. Her finger hovered just above it like she would trace the ridges, but she paused, years at the Gallery rendering her reluctant to touch old, strange art unless absolutely necessary.
This was why she had come, she realized — to feel useful for the first time in as long as she could remember. Researching in ancient books hadn’t gotten her anywhere good at CCU, and it certainly wasn’t going to start now. She stared and stared at the first carving, depicting the hunt of the pegasuses. The beautiful, magnificent creatures with ropes of starlight — her starlight — wrapped around their throat, yanking them from the skies. Perhaps this had been Theia’s original sin that began her descent into madness.
Bryce finally gave in and placed a hand against the cool rock, channeling her light into the stone river running through the chamber. It ran down the walls like a dam broke, filling the floor and even the ceiling with liquid starlight until everything was cast in iridescent white light.
At least it’s still good for something.
There were no gods, she realized. For all the glory and carnage depicted around her, there was not one deity carved into the stone. The Fae were certainly portrayed with a certain air of divinity, but the lack of true religious iconography was strange. Even the Prison carvings on Prythian showed the Cauldron from which their world was supposedly born, plus Theia wielding the Dread Trove on her throne while her devoted subjects cheered.
She had this nagging sense that there was some missing piece locked deep within her brain. Why hadn’t Theia fought harder to survive? She had the Horn and the Harp, plus Starsword and Truth-Teller, and she could have world walked anywhere… so why did she lose? How did she lose?
And where the Hel was Aidas? Silene said that he was away fetching an army, but… Rigelus said Aidas betrayed her. Even Apollion said that her trust in them had been her downfall. What did that mean? Who could she trust more?
None of them, Bryce realized as she shook her head. She couldn’t trust what anyone said. Even these carvings were stories, not facts, shaped by the minds who cut through mountains to tell them. History was always written by the victors, art included.
She realized that she might never discover the full truth she was seeking. That the motives and history of Hel might very well never be revealed to her — unless she failed, anyway. Maybe that was for the best. Maybe she just needed to mind her business and focus on killing them all. But how?
And how was she supposed to save Hunt?
She swallowed, turning back to the carvings. Her mind was stuck on Theia’s death, much like the dreams that swallowed her whole whenever she wasn’t too fucked up enough to remember them. She could feel it, like she had been the one waiting to be slain, her mate’s hands desperately trying to reach through worlds for her before that eternal darkness won.
Her eyebrows furrowed as she played it over and over, not sure which parts were from Silene and which her night terrors invented. Theia had died so easily for someone with so much power, and it just so happened to be at the exact moment her mate was too far to intervene. But not before she split her star and her weapons between her daughters, almost as if… as if she’d known they would end up on different worlds. As if she’d wanted to separate those powers so no one besides her true heir could wield them — or even find them. Maybe Aidas was the one she’d been trying to evade, if trusting him was such a mistake.
But why? Why didn’t she just take her daughters and leave the world to rot if she was such an evil tyrant? Even if she wasn’t — had she even tried to stop Pelias?
Bryce closed her eyes, stomach turning and bile rising in her throat as she tried to see herself in Theia’s place. Not because it was so unimaginable, but because it wasn’t. She knew what it felt like to make a split second decision to sacrifice herself for the sake of her world, even with the Asteri still at large. She knew what it felt like to give everything to save those she loved.
She knew what it felt like to give up.
And if Theia was anything like Bryce, she didn’t do anything without a reason. She had a goal — a mission. But it couldn’t have just been to save her daughters, or they all could have escaped together. She wanted to save all her people.
But how?
The questions circled and spun until the sun was high into the sky, sleep a distant memory. Bryce pulled out one of the mirthroot cigarettes tucked in her pocket and lit it, watching the flicker of her lighter bounce off the cave walls and illuminate the menacing faces carved within them.
One spot in the corner caught her eye, rock smoother than pebbles in a stream. In the very center of the spot, there was the faintest eight-pointed star, its outline barely indenting the black salt. The light skittered as if the stone itself chased it away, a small shadow among the glittering black salt walls flowing with the starlight river. Bryce approached it slowly, mirthroot dangling from her lips as she raised her hand. She hesitated with her fingertips hovering just above the smooth rock, heartbeat stuttering as if it could feel the power slumbering just beyond her touch. After several long drags, she shrugged at herself before pressing her palm flat against the stone.
Nothing happened.
For a long moment, she stood there with her hand against the matte midnight black spot, sighing at herself. The next, she felt the shift in the rock, sending her star gleaming while a rumble groaned beneath her feet.
The wall parted, crumbles of sediment and debris raining from above. She instinctively shielded her face with her arms, dust rising to choke her as she blinked through what felt like an explosion. As soon as it had started, the moving rock clicked into place, taking the cacophony with it.
The following silence was eerie, like pressure before a storm weighing on her ears.
Before her was a wide, open room; if the hidden passageway to Hel blended naturally into the stone, this room leapt from it, shining and glistening as if the rock had been meticulously polished. There was a massive moonstone bed in the center of the room, which laid on a thick tapestry rug made from varying shades of emerald and lavender. Glass orbs hung from the walls, seemingly spelled to glow for eternity.
And on the wall directly across from the bed, thick ivory curtains laid in ruffles on either side of a colossal mirror.
Bryce didn’t have to get any closer it to know this was the mirror she was supposed to find. She knew it in her bones — in her soul. Its frame was encrusted with jewels of all different hues, sparkling and gleaming under the soft glow filling the room. Small carvings swirled underneath it, looking eerily similar to the markings tattooed down her spine. The ancient language of the fae.
The glass was so clean it looked like liquid. Bryce approached it warily, feeling ripples of power emanating from it and bouncing throughout the room. It seemed to hum, the light on her chest glowing brighter in anticipation.
Bryce might not have recognized this place, but her star certainly did.
She got so close to the mirror her breath should have fogged up the glass, but not a speck of dust appeared to cover its smooth surface despite millennia of neglect. I really need to learn these cleaning spells, she reprimanded herself as she raised her fingertips to the inscription.
It dawned on her that she probably should have bothered to learn some of this language by now, too — or how to work this mirror, for that matter. All it revealed was her haggard, sleep-deprived appearance, which she wasn’t too eager to stare at for longer than necessary at this particular moment.
She closed her eyes, trying to channel her energy as if she were opening a portal. Find Nesta, she willed the mirror, her fingers still tracing the inscription. Bypass the gate between worlds. Find your sister.
Bryce could have sworn she felt a surge of power vibrate through her bones on the last word. Sister. The glass began to ripple like a pond disturbed by a breeze.
She took a step back, hands automatically gripping both guns as her heartbeat jumped to concerningly high levels. The surface continued to dance and shimmer until a sharp, unforgiving female face came into focus, judgment glowing in her striking metallic eyes.
But it wasn’t Nesta on the other side of the glass.
The strange woman was unnaturally gorgeous. Her hair was white as the moon, nearly the same shade as her porcelain skin. Her eyes were deep gold, glowing in the sunlight that was illuminating her beauty. She wore a deep red hooded cloak, which was pulled up over most of her her hair. Bryce was mesmerized, her face a perfect blend of angelic and demonic.
“Hello, witchling,” her cruel, hypnotizing voice crooned, her smile revealing rows of iron teeth so sharp they looked like they could pierce through her own jaw. Bryce suppressed a shudder, forcing her face into a mask smoother than the stone beneath her feet. “Why has a pretty thing like you come knocking on my mirror?”
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