The age of the Internet that has become jaded
The Internet, as it stands, has become extremely jaded. Selfish as I put it. I decided to come onto this Internet, forum, and ask for a advice on what I do as an author. My mom may she rest in peace, used to be an author of poems, though she never got to the point of publishing it runs in the family. But when I have a bunch of weasels in this forum, who want to say that I’m not an author because I used AI for assistant purposes.
Now, when I have discovered is that not only is the Internet, a toxic place, but also is that people are leaving very nasty comments on Facebook not on this platform but on Facebook saying that I am not an author but lazy using a lazy tool. When I started using AI, I didn’t know how to use it. I just thought it was something that I could use to assist me with ADHD. In fact I didn’t know that I had ADHD until I was 28 years old and even then I still had to develop the nuance of my developing mental illnesses and disabilities.
Even so, I am not someone to lie about using AI or using it to help me develop stuff. I know there is a huge debate when it comes to AI and it’s usage. How it’s destroying the planet and it’s become a controversial topic among the masses. How people are heavily against using it how it’s destroying the planet and I can understand that and I can also understand that it’s also taking peoples jobs not just in the workforce, but also in the creative workforce. It is not for me to get into this discussion because I can get stressed, overwhelmed, and overstimulated. Stress nonetheless because I have epilepsy, and as I tried to defend myself in the comments on Facebook, has let me to have 17 epileptic episodes in the past seven years, four in the last six. Trying to defend my actions with the developing AI development.
No, there is no way that I’m going to keep defending myself. And keep landing in the emergency room and stressing out my father who has become my chauffeur. I hate to write this post and I hate to defend myself on Facebook, but it has become to the point where I have to become the nasty bitch no pun intended.
I’m going to bed as of typing this post. I don’t need to defend myself anymore. If anyone doesn’t like the fact that I use AI to write, then I understand I will not use AI anymore. I deleted my accounts the ones that publish my books and we started them because apparently the Internet hates me. Literally, there is proof of me getting death threats because of that if they don’t believe me, then I will show and share proof. I have been getting the death threats from people that are heavenly against AI.
No, I am not here to rent and raise. I’m here to defend my reputation, my mother is a reputation because she was an author and my mother’s legacy and if you think that my mother raised a lazy, asshole, my mother didn’t die of cancer to make me promise on her death bed to do better. And that is what I intend to do.
This is not to gain sympathy to defend my reputation as I had to do 17 times over my entire life. This is why I hate the Internet. But I have to use the Internet in order for me to write my stories.