u/fairynymphgirl

I'm 18. I spent all four years of my high school career learning about medicine, hosting blood drives and community health events, and operating and leading several medicine/health/pre-med related organizations and clubs. I basically centered my entire life around wanting to pursue medicine and become a physician. I even got into my dream university by writing about my passion for neuroscience. I was basically proficient in all subjects to the point where I took over 10 college level courses to challenge myself and was recognized by my schools dean at grad because of this

I'm now in my first year of college and math (calc) is absolutely destroying me. I got my first ever C last quarter and genuinely contemplated h//arming myself. I cried for basically two weeks straight and couldn't even tell my family because I knew they'd be extremely disappointed and confused at my utter failure. These are literally entry level math classes.
I'm in one this quarter too and im so terrified of getting a C again that I might withdraw. My brain can't conceptualize any of it for some reason, and I feel incredibly stupid.

If this is how I feel in my first few college math classes, I can't imagine taking the pre-med route and going to medical school. What do I do? I feel like it's too late to change my mind. I'm ending my first year of college soon. I guess it doesn't matter how passionate you are about something if you aren't smart enough for it

I finished prep yesterday and ended off with clear colored BM with tiny fecal matter at the bottom, however its now the morning of my colonoscopy and there’s still some tiny bits in my BM. is this a cause for concern?

hello all, my colonoscopy is in 3 days and im on the low fiber diet day where I was told i can eat things like white rice, bread, pasta, etc. can i drink milk tea? like boba but without the pearls? they gave me a list of things to avoid but coffee and tea weren’t on it so im just making sure. my liquid diet begins tomorrow

i used a few yandere subs and “possessive”/“obsessed” subs for a while (its been a month since I last listened) but the results were more intense than i expected. i DONT regret listening to these subs because atleast i know that they work but im looking for more non violent ones that are hopefully less intense but still obsessive. i manifested (also used ideal bf subs) a guy near my age who was extremely kind and sweet at first but overall got wayyyyy too aggressive and jealous. I don’t want to manifest a jealous partner but he demanded i change my clothes and remove all men from my life, even my closest male best friends. eventually he began getting a lil scary 😭 i wasn’t harmed but he made some pretty bad threats about my male guy friends and i wnded up cutting him off.

i still want to manifest an obsessed bf but i don’t want any violent affirmations (ex. he would kill for me). does anyone have safe possessive recs?

these are simply anecdotal experiences so i don't know if this is actually true, but i spend a lot of time around intelligent people and ive come to realize that they don't take the time to focus on enhancing their appearance or looking more presentable. the smartest women i know seldom wear makeup, constantly wear baggy clothes rather than more tight-fitting pieces, and they don't do anything to their hair (not that this one matters that much, but every other woman i know is extremely concerned about makeup and hairstyles).

this also could just be that they have different priorities and appearance is low on their scale, but id like to know if anyone else relates or notices this. im also a STEM major (im sadly not intelligent like my peers) and noticed that the STEM girls at my university wear way less makeup and jewelry than the average girl at our school