u/freakysnake102

I hate the way I look

I hate that I am useless

I hate that I am stupid

I hate that I fucked up everything

This year I accomplished

I failed the CNA program because I was sick and my car broken down so I was forced into working overtime so I could he dropped off at home twice

I failed at roofing because after 2 months I couldn't do anything and I was never taught anything because I am useless. My boss told me to hang myself and that I shouldn't even try college either because I am useless idiot with no common sense

I am just gonna hope someone takes me out

I’ve been working non-stop, and I’m waiting to go back to college to become a lab tech. Sadly, I’m going to have to wait until January because I’m saving up every penny so I can

focus on school full-time.

I’m going to be 24 in March, and it’s really going to bother me because most people by 25 already have a career or trade.

Meanwhile, I’m saving up to go back to school, and it genuinely sucks because I just want a decent income so I can try dating again.

I need money for dating and I would do anything for a chance to have love again

I am a complete net negative of a person

I am stupid

I am not that strong

I am ugly

I am short

I am everything terrible I can be

I got a CNA course for free and failed because I got sick and my car broke down also because I was forced into overtime at work and was trying to balance it all

I also tried construction for 2 months but after not being taught anything at the roofing job and being told I am useless at roofing I quit

My former boss at the roofing company was kind of right I shouldn't even attempt college again or do construction work

I honestly don't want to live most days and I don't see the point in saving up for college I want to go be a lab tech but honestly not sure it's worth it I am a fucking idiot who sucks at math and I haven't took chemistry since highschool

I am also still drunk from last night I was miserable and alone so I wanted to feel slightly better

I am just done with life and I couldn't salvage its too late

I mean last time I tried I was still fucking useless at everything after 2 months but to be fair I am useless at everything