u/freckleritz

Do you know any good podcasts or YouTube videos/channels that discuss TRT for women?

I feel I have a lot to learn.

I’m a 37yo mom of 2. I went to my OBGYN, who delivered both my kids and who I love, because I had no libido. Zero. Nada. He asked for my T levels (21) and then prescribed me with T gel, testogel. He told me to use 1/2 pack 3x per week. Each pack has 50mg of T, so that would be 75mg per week.

I knew nothing of T, only that bodybuilders use it and I didn’t want to be a bodybuilder, so I decided to take 1/3 pack, 3x per week, making it 50mg/week.

I did this for 3 weeks. My gym sessions were insane. My libido exploded. My husband was happy. I felt incredible.

Then I went to my endocrinologist for another issue. I told her about my OBGYN’s prescription and she almost fell off her chair. She told me that’s too much, she normally starts with 3,5mg per week. She prescribed me with 1mg per day cream (7mg week).

So obviously I am scared off my pants at this point and I’m taking the 7mg per week. I’m not feeling great, my libido is meh (not dead but not really alive either).

Was my OBGYN crazy? I know my endo is a bit conservative, so I just need some calibration - what are normal doses of T for women?

I just found this in my drafts, from 7 years ago, and reading it again just pissed the absolute hell out of me:

>I quit my previous job (Marketing) and changed careers (went back to University and all) because I thought it would fix my deep dislike of working if I was doing something I found meaningful. Well, now what I do can be considered meaningful, I work with science and innovation and I have requested to be involved only in projects related to subjects that I find meaningful (climate change, water resources, food security).

>Seems like I hate it anyway, but this time because of the company itself.

>Been here for 2 years. It's a family company that only really exists to serve the purposes of the actual family. However, it is immensely lucrative and has been growing (80 consultants at the moment). I get paid SHIT (around 1000€/month), even though I have huge responsibilities and stress on my shoulders. I go to high-level events to represent the company very often, where I'm probably the person who earns the least by a lot, and I have to be there, pretending to belong to this absurd elite of people who sip their whiskeys and pretend life is all about economic growth and investment opportunities and networking (OH, HOW I HATE NETWORKING), ignoring that the people who are serving us are probably struggling just to get by.

>I moved abroad for a 6 month secondment they promoted and I applied for, and they gave me extra 700€/month for expenses, BUT 500€ OF THOSE ARE A LOAN, meaning that IF I LEAVE THE COMPANY WITHIN 3 YEARS I NEED TO PAY IT BACK.

>All the while the CEO just bought land where he will be developing a multi-million retirement project, all with the company's money, where he will go and make some wine until he dies. To hide the fact that this is his own f-ing personal project, he made an announcement to the company, explaining the whole project and how he created a subcompany to manage it and that we can be involved in it if we want, trying to mobilise us to be excited about it. Bear in mind, our company has nothing to do with wine. His daughter and nephew are part of the administration board. I report to the daughter directly. Both of them travel the f-ing world on company money, first class, for "meetings". Both of them are deeply incompetent.

>So, if it wasn't for my SO (who is financially stable and helping me), I would be now a prisoner of this company for 3 years if I wanted to be paid as a f-ing adult and not as a part-time student in a burger joint and survive in a city abroad where I am WORKING FOR THEM. It's humiliating.

>I plan on quitting as soon as possible, but I don't know what's next. I'm saving the 500€/month so that I can throw it in their faces when I quit.

As a follow-up, I quit a few months after returning, threw the money right in their faces, went to an even worse place - where people were clinically insane, but the pay was double. Quit that after 4 months.

Started working for a company, earning a bit less, but where I was working with NORMAL people who didn't think work was the main thing happening in my life (our theirs).

I've been there for 6 years now, I earn well enough, and I'm happy as one can be while working. If I have to work, at least I'm working with people who respect me and understand that I work to live, not the inverse.