u/friesSupreme25

Without giving out my identity, one day my partner flipped a switch and left. It was like I didn't recognize the man I had spent the last 5 years with. He suffers from HD. And I guess I never really thought about the mental implications so deeply as I did the physical. Nobody cared for him like I did, and he took out a lot of anger and trauma on me. Some of the dialogue during this separation didn't make any sense to me whatsoever. And i spend a lot of time ruminating due to my own mental health.

So I guess what I'm looking for is other stories of the struggle of being in a romantic relationship with someone with HD. How did you distinguish the pain of their treatment towards you and feeling valid in your emotions to not deserve such treatment? I have a lot of empathy knowing this might not be the person I know but also anxiety and pain from their treatment. I feel abandoned by their friends and family in the support and understanding of what's happening. I could just really use some perspective on how to handle or process what is happening.

I could use some hope. Seems like my whole life has fell victim to my adhd and i have failed myself over and over again. My childhood was full of feeling like a terrible child bc thats what the adults labeled me as. My teens were filled with depression and anxiety, bullying, and awful friendships/relationships. Young adulthood was a nightmare to navigate. Cant hold down a job. Lost my support system (my mom) to cancer. Feel absolutely alone. At 31 Im really at a breaking point. I dont know what else to do or try to be better. Ive lost everything i care about bc of my symptoms despite trying so hard. I am under the poverty line and cant seem to get ahead.

I guess what im looking for is similar experiences. Or any suggestions on what i can do from here. Im on meds (cipralex& vyvanse), go to therapy, but i still feel alone and misunderstood. Can anyone give me ideas for next steps so late into life? What has helped your severe adhd? I could use all the suggestions, ideas, experiences. Anything to help me feel normal.