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hello guys, i would like to ask for some explanation as well as advice for my most prevalent, long-standing issues. please kindly help me out, thank you<3

1. i have no life direction, nothing to fight for, nothing to work towards. as a uni student, i know my peers are working hard and going great lengths to make connections, etc but i genuinely don't know what job i want to pursue. what should i do? who should i become? right now i'm doing a business degree but gosh do i resent it. showbiz has drawn me in for a long time but with my very humble, and rather disadvantageous background, i'd have to carve my place alone. whatever field i should be in, i always felt like i was meant for something bigger, more impactful, more vibrant (sorry i sound delusional, but bear with me). seeing numbers & selling my soul to capitalism bore me to death but the creative industry is so dependent on pleasing people & very demanding as well, idk if i'm suited for it (or anything) at all. i don't want to live a small, quiet, conventional life though. i've been feeling extremely sluggish (or maybe i always have been?) with basically everything related to school and employment. how do i navigate this? how should i pave my career path?
2. i've been satisfied with very little in my life. i am grateful for what i have, and in the happy moments i do feel happy, but man i feel like i'm developmentally stunted & always missing out on the regular experience. my family's not my best friends, i don't want to live the life they set out for me, my hometown feels like a cage that i desperately want to escape from. for some reason i never had a true 1-1 bestie/bsf group even though i craved for it for so long. i'd just be the floater friend within diff groups. i don't have anything/one that i can call my own. high school was the worst time, i never knew why it happened to me, but i did not get along with almost anyone in my hs class; they would get along with me at first but then all drifted away, while i remained the same the whole time. what is wrong with me? what are my destined setbacks, and what can i change? am i that difficult to stay with? my close circle would testify how loyal and all-in i am with friendships, but i never, ever, got what i wanted--relationship-wise & goal-wise. what am i supposed to do with my big dreams? i want to manifest successfully too. why is it so hard for me? i used to feel like i was somehow gifted, yet i just fell behind. will i ever get my dream social life? can i ever achieve my goals or will i have to accept my average chud life forever? how should i move forward from now on?
3. gosh stop complaining, just accept what you have. i have been telling myself that, yet it seems i'm always settling for something that's not 100% what i want, and not making the most of my potential. i have not felt that i made the right choice in picking schools, environments & friends since the age of 15. i'd always have this illusion of things getting better but they never did. i want a change, to move away, to turn my life 180 degrees, but.. how? i'm always so mentally & physically tired too like what...

please kindly read me to filth, be brutal, be concise. tell me exactly what i must hear and do. do not hold back. i don't want any emotional comfort or generic 'you should change your mindset' stuff. i've talked to others/myself out of this so many times. i know what mentality i should embody but physically how? why am i never 100% happy? thank you so much.