My first love died in a road accident when i was 18 since then it’s been almost a decade I could find love in my life and i m dying dying inside literally to have that feeling have that kind of partner again in my life i understand that that was a canon event and couldn’t be stopped in any condition for me to get into spirituality but life has been hard lately and i wish i had a compatible partner
What are the chances in near future

I feel like I’m missing some hidden piece of life that everyone else seems to understand. My love life is miserable, nothing feels meaningful, and every birth chart reading I’ve had has felt vague or wrong. Is there anyone who can actually read my chart and help me understand what’s going on?

Also, 2026 has been a train wreck and I am hoping for some good news between june and august. Am I being naive?

Any spiritual people out there?? This picture is from earlier this year

Which planets are causing hairloss ? I also have pcos
9th October 1992
Female
Nellore ,ap
5:30pm

left: birth right: transit

hello guys, i would like to ask for some explanation as well as advice for my most prevalent, long-standing issues. please kindly help me out, thank you<3

1. i have no life direction, nothing to fight for, nothing to work towards. as a uni student, i know my peers are working hard and going great lengths to make connections, etc but i genuinely don't know what job i want to pursue. what should i do? who should i become? right now i'm doing a business degree but gosh do i resent it. showbiz has drawn me in for a long time but with my very humble, and rather disadvantageous background, i'd have to carve my place alone. whatever field i should be in, i always felt like i was meant for something bigger, more impactful, more vibrant (sorry i sound delusional, but bear with me). seeing numbers & selling my soul to capitalism bore me to death but the creative industry is so dependent on pleasing people & very demanding as well, idk if i'm suited for it (or anything) at all. i don't want to live a small, quiet, conventional life though. i've been feeling extremely sluggish (or maybe i always have been?) with basically everything related to school and employment. how do i navigate this? how should i pave my career path?
2. i've been satisfied with very little in my life. i am grateful for what i have, and in the happy moments i do feel happy, but man i feel like i'm developmentally stunted & always missing out on the regular experience. my family's not my best friends, i don't want to live the life they set out for me, my hometown feels like a cage that i desperately want to escape from. for some reason i never had a true 1-1 bestie/bsf group even though i craved for it for so long. i'd just be the floater friend within diff groups. i don't have anything/one that i can call my own. high school was the worst time, i never knew why it happened to me, but i did not get along with almost anyone in my hs class; they would get along with me at first but then all drifted away, while i remained the same the whole time. what is wrong with me? what are my destined setbacks, and what can i change? am i that difficult to stay with? my close circle would testify how loyal and all-in i am with friendships, but i never, ever, got what i wanted--relationship-wise & goal-wise. what am i supposed to do with my big dreams? i want to manifest successfully too. why is it so hard for me? i used to feel like i was somehow gifted, yet i just fell behind. will i ever get my dream social life? can i ever achieve my goals or will i have to accept my average chud life forever? how should i move forward from now on?
3. gosh stop complaining, just accept what you have. i have been telling myself that, yet it seems i'm always settling for something that's not 100% what i want, and not making the most of my potential. i have not felt that i made the right choice in picking schools, environments & friends since the age of 15. i'd always have this illusion of things getting better but they never did. i want a change, to move away, to turn my life 180 degrees, but.. how? i'm always so mentally & physically tired too like what...

please kindly read me to filth, be brutal, be concise. tell me exactly what i must hear and do. do not hold back. i don't want any emotional comfort or generic 'you should change your mindset' stuff. i've talked to others/myself out of this so many times. i know what mentality i should embody but physically how? why am i never 100% happy? thank you so much.

Lmk ;)