29M, Friend suggested Sawan fasts to find a life partner. I'm conflicted.
29M here. I've been on dating apps for a while now and have gone on quite a few dates. I've talked to a lot of people, but I just haven't been able to find someone I can see myself marrying. Just typical dating app things. I've also tried matrimonial apps, but I didn't really find any good matches there either. My parents aren't actively looking for an arranged marriage setup for me because I have a couple of cousins who are still unmarried.
Recently, I was talking to a friend, and she suggested that I observe the Monday fasts for Lord Shiva during Sawan (Sawan ke Somwar). The thing is, I'm not a very religious person. I believe in God, but I haven't actively worshipped for the past 12–13 years. I used to be very religious. I used to pray regularly and ask God for things. But over time, based on my own experiences, I came to feel that asking for things in prayer wasn't changing anything, so I gradually stopped. These days, if I visit a temple, I'll fold my hands, bow my head, and that's about it. I don't really pray or ask for anything anymore.
She asked me to consider keeping the Monday fasts, but I'm not completely sure if I should go ahead with it because it feels like it goes against the way I've viewed and practiced my faith for the past 12 years. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? Did you decide to do something like this even if you weren't particularly religious? I'd love to hear your thoughts.
TL;DR: 29M struggling to find a life partner through dating and matrimonial apps. A friend suggested observing Sawan Monday fasts for Lord Shiva, but I haven't actively practiced my faith in over a decade and stopped praying after feeling that asking God for things wasn't helping. I'm unsure if doing the fast now would be genuine or just transactional.
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