why do i lack emotional depth/intimacy in my friendships?
hello everyone! i hope you’re having a great day.
my understanding of astrology leads me to see that my chart makes me out to be an expressive, personable, and “fun” individual, and this is true to my knowledge. i am good at bringing people together, building community, and being a reliable friend. this is a gift, a privilege, and an honor—i truly love that i can make others happy, and it’s something that brings me pride and joy as well.
however, i lack emotional depth and intimacy in my relationships though it is something i crave. friends that introduce to each other end up becoming closer to each other than they are to me. i catch myself thinking “i wish i was someone’s first choice” often. this thought used to be accompanied by resentment and despair, but it’s now more of a sad friend that has seen me through the years. and of course, this is not a singular experience—i’m sure everyone has felt this way before!
are there any parts of my chart that may indicate why 1) i crave emotional intimacy so deeply, and 2) why i feel it has evaded me thus far?
birth time source: birth certificate of live birth (hospital-issued)