my boyfriend is triggered by keloids, i have keloids, it makes me want to cry
(he/him for us both) no shit-talking him or anything of the sort please
in forced recovery currently, i know where sharp objects are but im still getting body scanned so i cant cut
we were having a discussion about scar censorship, im very anti censoring healed scars and he thinks trigger warnings are needed and he talked about how real scars make him want to cut deeper so he feels more valid
i know he cant control his triggers but it makes me want to bawl my fucking eyes out, i was so close to accepting my scars and getting comfortable wearing shorts in public because summer is soon but it just set everything back for me
it makes me feel like my body is dirty and bad which i already struggle with from purity culture
its different than my eds too because i dont look starved anymore, im short and skinny but i dont think i inherently look malnourished, but theres no mistaking my scars for what they are and my body will always upset people
he said sorry and tried to comfort me but even the best possible scenario is so utterly depressing to me, i hate the idea of my skin triggering my favorite person