u/gracieisrecovering

Went to an NA meeting this morning and the V&A right after with my flatmate. It was really nice aside from my lil addict brain buzzing around. Thought about using basically all day - but I’ve hit a wall with my tolerance and I know it wouldn’t even work.
Plus I lost my wallet while high in a bagel shop at 7am a few days ago so I can’t even pull out money to buy drugs. Hooray limiting factors!

Feeling really really really hopeful. Luckily I’m not having crazy withdrawal symptoms, just slightly more anhedonia than usual. If anyone wants to chat throughout the week or the next coming weeks I’d love that. Sharing is what keeps us sober and all that.

Edit to add: is severe dry mouth normal when using higher doses per day on k? This has only started within the past two or so days with pretty heavy usage, more than normal because I realized I might have to give it up. I’m wondering if maybe my shit is dirty.

I posted here a few days ago, got some great advice. My use has definitely been unhealthy and I’ve decided it’s time to taper off. I’d been clearing about a gram in a day, sometimes a gram and a half. Gave myself only a half gram for today.
Took a bump in the morning, gave me a mild effect that I like from bumps. Waited till lunchtime to use again instead of doing it consistently all day, got decently high this time. Then I was doing my evening sesh and I railed quite a few lines, don’t really remember how many, but it was a lot for me over the course of an hour. Barely felt anything. Kept trying for a while and finally gave up, gave it an hour, moistened my nose.
Two decent sized lines. I even did loads of research on how to sniff properly cuz I thought maybe I was doing something wrong.
Felt absolutely nothing. Aside from an ever worsening dry mouth.
I’m really sad I guess - I wanted to at least get a few decent night seshes and ration my shit before I have to give it up completely. But honestly it’s for the best. Maybe I wouldn’t have been able to stop if it kept working.
No way I’m moving up anything past a gram and a half a day, I’m a student and can barely afford that as is. Not to mention how much damage that would do to me - and is probably already doing.
I have about a 3rd of a gram left over for tomorrow morning just to stave off withdrawals for a little bit longer, and then I guess I’m done. Not saying I won’t ever do her again but this addict tomfoolery has got to stop.
Time to come back to reality.

Basically the title. I counted my baggies and calculated against that since I started, adding a little extra for lines or bumps I’ve bummed off other people.
I’ve started going to NA meetings, have a timed lockbox for my shit, started taking green tea supplements multiple times a day (but only within the last week).
I haven’t noticed any bladder issues or pain so far, aside from the most minuscule leakage starting about a week and a half ago.
If anyone has any advice or recommendations it’d be much appreciated. I had 4 years sober from alcohol that I gave up about 6 months ago, but that’s been all fine. Drinking hasn’t been even a minute problem so far. It’s really since I first tried ket that things have spiraled a bit. I’m still mostly functional, barring some decrease in performance in my school work, and making my flatmate a little concerned. Really lucky to be surrounded by supportive friends who let me vent and talk about how frustrating it is to go back to meetings.
But if anyone’s gotten clean/been able to achieve a level of control with this shit I’d love to hear your experience!
Thanks guys much love ❤️