I feel so angry with myself for getting duped into this bs
Been in the iskcon world since my 20s, I married a man who temple management said was an “amazing” devotee. Said temple management encourages the wife serves the man hand and foot concept but then when I do that and had to give up my temple services because my husband wanted me at home serving him hand and foot, the management who had previously showered me with love and affection completely stonewalled me and acted like I didn’t exist anymore, I was devastated, I thought these people really cared about me. My husband just constantly demanded that I do this and that for him, my life wasn’t my own anymore, it was all about him and what he wants, he took over any money I had and started telling me what I can and can’t do with it. And the temple management and gurus had basically put this kind of ideology in his head, that the wife is there to serve him and I was groomed to be a servile and brainless wife who does anything the husband wants. I feel angry that I was taken in by these people that don’t actually give two fucks about me. It’s taken years to see this for the cult it is. God, I feel so angry with myself for wasting so much time and allowing myself for being treated so poorly.