Ways of connecting with Krishna outside of ISKCON?
Hello,
I was just wondering if there is anyone here who still follows Hinduism/Sanatana Dharma who knows of ways of connecting/relating to Lord Krishna outside of ISKCON?
For context, I was not born into the religion, I live in Europe, and came to ISKCON because I was interested in Hinduism and ISKCON make themselves very accessible.
The thing is, I want to explore connecting with or relating to Krishna. I still find him loveable, and I know there are other sampradayas etc, and plenty of people who just relate to him as their deity and love him. But Krishna is so tied into ISKCON in my mind that it's hard to separate the two?
I was a teenager when I first got involved with ISKCON. And they talk about the unconditional love of Krishna and so on, but I feel that is not the case in practice?
Like it's like, oh Krishna is so loving anyone can worship him... But actually if you're not pure enough you should worship him as Jagannatha... Oh but if you're not pure enough you might offend him, so actually worship Lord Chaitanya/Gaura-Nitai... Oh but actually if you're not pure enough you might offend them, so worship Prabhupada instead... And doing this you might be worthy to become a blade of grass in Vrindavana.
Krishna is supposed to be this loving and intimate deity but I feel that, through everything I've absorbed from ISKCON, I in fact associate him with distance and ritual stringency and worrying about whether or not I'm pure enough for him.
Does anyone have any advice?
Thanks