cooked for stem transfer?
I just graduated high school and am devastated from my college decision results. I applied to UCLA, UCSD, UCSB, UCI, UCR, UCSC, SDSU, SJSU, CSULB, CSUSM for bioengineering/microbio and was rejected to all except UCSC to biotech, waitlisted UCR bioengineering and csusm for bio. I didn't commit to any of those and I chose to do the cc route.
My original plan was to do 1 year at cc and try to transfer for applied maths since as of now I already have 40 credits from APs and I really only have 4 more classes of required prereqs in which I am now taking C++ during the summer (a prerequisite) and im planning on taking multivariable calc and linear algebra this fall and differential equations in the spring. That would complete the required press. Additionally I am a math tutor and plan to join related clubs once school starts.
Although, after some talking and advice, I realized I don't really know what I can do with applied maths. Well I mean there are some clear paths like finance and stuff but I am not that kinda of person. I am really drawn to STEM, like the hands on type stuff like I want to be in a lab working on stuff, and bioengineering to me was like love at first sight. So as a conclusion, I want to try to transfer for either microbiology or bioengineering and I am planning on only applying to UCLA, UCSD, UCI, SDSU and maybe Columbia which is kinda a far reach.
Anyways, this is going very sideways. the main point is am I cooked for it? How competitive is it to transfer for micro or bioengineering or any type of engineering? Did I make a mistake by not accepting any of those admissions?
Another unfun fact about me is I have the worst fomo. All summer I have been thinking about how the rest of my life might be ruined because I didn't get into college the first time. I mean im missing out on freshmen activities, the freedom, the social life??? Back home I don't get that. I mean my mom is pretty strict on. me and I hate that she still treats me like a baby. I always saw that leaving for college would be my escape and then I received those rejections and it all went away.
Also, if I get off the waitlist for UCR, do I take it? and possibly transfer to another school from ucr? at least that way im not feeling alone. I was thinking about it but then I saw cc has better chances of transferring but then what if I want to transfer to like Columbia or Georgetown or somewhere else? do they prefer cc students over 4 year student like the ucs do? Listen I think UCR is a great school and I would totally go there... if only I didn't live literally 10 minutes from the campus. I know a lot of people from my school are going there but I was telling myself I can't see myself going there, but if I get accepted for bioengineering? at least Im doing he major that I want and I feel like with engineering I have a secure future which is the most important factor for me. This is also why I now I fully regret not taking ucsc because it was for biotech, the exact thing I want to study and I love everything about it, the only reason I didn't take it was because 1. I am not a normal person ( I know that seems stupid but trust me it's a big thing for me) and 2. for some stupid reason I thought I could do better and grinding it out at cc will be worth it if I get accepted into somewhere better? idk I feel like I just made a huge mistake...
sorry this seems like more of a rant than asking for advice but any advice or comments would be very much appreciated ;-;