New witch, worried that I've caused night terrors
Hey all, I'm a very new witch doing this for the very first time and admittedly have not done as much research as I wanted, but I was excited to get started. As I'm going through a difficult divorce right now, and have had a lot of bad luck and weird happenings, I wanted to check whether I've been cursed or hexed and then clear any negative energy around my home.
So last night I got a dish, filled it with about a centimetre of water, sprinkled in rock salt for protection and black pepper for clearing negative energy. I added four yellow rose petals in each corner to send out warmth and friendship. I lit a candle, lit two matches with it with the intent to drop them into the water. A T-shape meant that somebody had tried but failed, and an X meant that somebody had tried and succeeded. However, my first set of matches didn't work as one of the lights went out. I put them aside, lit two more matches and threw them into the water. Luckily they ended up parallel. However, then I decided off the cuff to toss the two previous matches into the water. I don't know why, I just did. And then I realised that I had forgotten how to close off a spell so I got up to quickly remind myself and then I shut it off.
Something wasn't sitting correctly with me, so I decided then to do a protection spell. I used the same dish after cleaning it, put a white candle in the centre using a cupcake sleeve to keep it upright without getting wax on my dish, and added a pink quartz crystal to the little cupcake thing. I had a mix of salt, rosemary and pink peppercorn and after double-checking the meanings of those herbs I formed an unbroken circle around the candle and cupcake thing, lit the candle and while asking for protection from me and my child, I cupped my hands around the flame and tossed the energy imagining it washing the house clean. This one felt better and I ended the spell.
And then of course not 5 minutes later my child has their very first night terror and was absolutely inconsolable and couldn't seem to wake. I worry that I did something wrong, especially considering how new I am at this. The last thing that I would ever want to do is cause harm or pain to my child.
I would love any advice for reversing the negative effect if there is one and it wasn't a poorly timed coincidence and any advice moving forward for how to improve my spells.