New alter here. I feel like a drag to the other members in my system but I want them to be happier. They feel like a good team but i'm an obstacle.
I am the most sensitive alter in our system and my headmates treat my kindly. But because of how I am I end up interrupting their routines. Yesterday was pretty bad. I got paranoid over something while another alter was fronting. It was slight but that small amount of paranoia caused me to suddenly switch with them and I was completely unprepared. No one else was co-conscious with me, ended up wasting the whole day in bed. My alters are more competent than me at least in how they take care of the body and I do not want to interrupt them. I've read it was not advice-able to force switches but with how things are going I don't think it's good for our body or system to have me be a host or a regular fronter. Like this happens often. I'm guessing it's because I recently experienced trauma and have shown symptoms of ptsd that I keep being forced back in front. We're also a very new system so I'm hoping its early year hiccups.