Been doing push-ups with moderate success. My right shoulder doesn't get the message. I thought this was because of me being left handed so I focused on putting more weight on my right side. But my right arm and back muscles are doing fine, it's really just the shoulder that's stays small. And the bigger the left shoulder gets the more lopsided I feel.
Am I doing something wrong?
I'm physically hurting myself and it can't go on like this. Every time I do it I fear for my health and tell myself I won't ever do it again. Then I'm horny. Rinse, repeat.
I know it'd be helpful for the therapist to know. But I don't know how to approach this. I tried before.
The first was uncomfortable and cut me off. The second immediately tried guessing. I didn't even get to tell either of them about the self-harm because I closed up.
It'd be a lot easier for me to try and get help if I knew that it is not necessary for them to know *everything* to help me. Perhaps as the therapy progresses I'll find enough trust to actually tell them.
Does anyone have experience?
No job was it for me and my CV isn't getting any shorter so I thought fuck it, I'll go for security. One lucky shot. Had my interview today. Felt right, no roadblocks. Let's hope I get it, and that my motivation stays.