u/heisensexy

I was always very skinny as a child all the way through college. I am 5'8" and never weighed more than 120 lbs through college. After 23, my weight kind of packed on slowly through the years.. I got on an anti-anxiety med at 24, then got diagnosed with hypothyroidism and got on a thyroid medication at 28. I'm 29 now and cannot get the weight down. I'm constantly stuck at 200lbs.

Is there a good method to stop "reminiscing" over how my teen/young adult body used to look? Is there a way to cope with how my body is, with stretchmarks and stuff?

The constant stream of thought I have is to try and lose weight, attempt way 1, fail, and stop. Move on to the next idea. Fail, stop. Ad nauseum. Wanting to be skinny makes me feel sad, but I can't stop "thinking" that I still look 21 and thin, then get a reality check in photos and in the mirror.

Hopefully this makes sense. Let me know if this post doesn't belong in the community and ill delete it. Sorry in advance.