u/herald_of_stars

Before a wellness check was a thing.

So...I got a call from my apartment complex and they said a woman who said she was my mother and was "worried" about me because it's been almost a year since she's heard from me.

She requested a wellness check which...I'm not surprised about. I'm more shocked it took her this long for her to try and initiate one.

I immediately let them know to ignore it. Luckily due to protocols/policies, they didn't tell her I was here so that's good.

I'm just like...it's been almost 9 months and somehow the hint still hasn't been taken?

Normally children would love their parents giving a shit about them, but in this case, it's more like...does she give a shit or is it just the same old story of trying to keep the status quo?

I think it's more the latter since I always have to remind myself that...she's not a safe space. My mind knows this, but my body still reacts from memory and it's very taxing.

I'm just so tired...

I went NC with both parents at the end of August 2025, so it hasn't been a year yet. Today's my first mother's day not doing anything for my mother.

I've been feeling so many things and it's insane how hurt I feel even after all this time. I know I'm the one choosing to not contact my mother for this day, but still. It's like that grief and guilt? Self gaslighting?

It's been almost 9 months...

I hear the first year's always super rough. I guess that's what's happening here.

But to the main topic here, I wasn't really thinking about it too much until I got this cryptic as hell voicemail transcription.

I don't even know what she's talking about. I'm not gonna call to find out, but it welled up a whole bunch of emotions that I don't need right now.

It was a matter of time...

Cryptic voicemail on Mother's Day...