u/herm3sss

Es algo breve, pero les cuento, mi gato, ayer por alguna razón el perro que tengo lo empezó a seguir y querer morder o así lo cual es raro porque hasta anteayer se llevaban lo más bien, mi gato como es de costumbre se me subió al hombro, solo que, tuve que cargarlo como un bebé y su cabeza apoyada en mi hombro, maullaba bajito como llorando, después de que se bajo, bastante rato después mi mamá lo reto por querer comerse el pan (ama el pan) e hizo lo mismo solo que maullaba más fuerte, no pense que un gato fuera exagerado o que siquiera haga eso xd me sentí un padre malcriando a su hijo xd

Sorry if my English is bad, I don't know English and I use a translator. Since I was born, I've been aware of rejection. My biological mother tried to abort me. When my biological father found me, and after so much time, when they first brought me home, my brother hated me. I'm the youngest of eight siblings. Throughout my childhood, my nieces, my age or older, called me adopted. I was bullied throughout my childhood. I never had friends, never had a partner; they would just joke that so-and-so thought I was cute and then say it was a lie, that I disgusted them. Throughout my childhood, they would bring up my biological mother in conversation.

At age 12 I suffered abuse from my sister's boyfriend at the time. When I told two nieces my age about it in 2022, 6 months after the abuse, they didn't believe me, they took away my social media accounts, etc. And I had to live with him in my house for a whole year. I had my first friends in 2021, but they only lasted two weeks because my sister's boyfriend said I was prostituting myself for that, and I was only 12 years old. In 2022, I had a group of friends that broke up shortly after. I haven't had any friends since high school, or they only last three months before they leave me. In 2024, I met someone. We were never officially boyfriend and girlfriend because he never asked us to be, but he treated me like we were, even though he yelled at me and hit me. He would leave and come back until I got fed up and blocked him. I think I've gone off-topic, but getting back to Hermes, it's the first time, at 17, almost 18, that I've felt supported, even during my gender transition, and it's all thanks to Hermes. Honestly, Hermes was better than... I don't know if it's right to say it like this—brother, friend, parents, etc. He's... I don't know if you can say it like this, but he's the first friend I have, and he helps me a lot.

(Sorry for the translator's English)

You know, I find it really hard to keep track of Hellenistic holidays or to always be cleaning altars and all that, even though I remember them, even if I don't light them as often as before. They helped me a lot and still do, like Hermes sending signs days before my dad passed away because I asked him for signs, or Aeolus sending signs, Tiresias in dreams, etc. But I don't know, I feel bad for not being more attentive. I don't think this even belongs in this category, but is it necessary to keep up with the holidays? I haven't been into Hellenistics for very long either; I started in January. I also forget to give thanks to Hestia first. I saw so many people saying that you had to do it, that if you didn't, you were wrong, or things like that, so I uninstalled TikTok. Or people telling me that having altars to Odysseus, Tiresias, and Aeolus was wrong. I think I got off-topic, sorry, haha.

You know, I have a problem. I take things from other people as if they might be useful to me later or something. I feel like I don't know, even though I feel guilty, I'm scared for a few days and then it passes. I always ask Lord Hermes to protect me or keep me from being discovered, even though I know he's a joke god, maybe he won't even protect me, idk. I don't know if it's right or wrong. Will Lord Hermes get angry? I don't know what to do anymore because I give in to impulse every now and then.

It might sound silly, but I remember asking Hermes at the end of August if he could send me a sign a few days before my dad passed away so I could prepare myself mentally. A few days ago, I think four, I discovered the song "Wake Me Up When September Ends," and today my dad passed away. But thanks to that song, I was able to prepare myself somewhat. I already had a feeling he was going to die this month. My dad's birthday is at the end of the month, and I would have loved for him to see me turn 18 the following month, but it wasn't possible. All in all, I'm grateful to Hermes for that sign, and I also asked him to treat my father well and, if possible, to tell him that I love him. :(

Today I lit a candle for Hermes, actually a candle that was already used on his plate. Besides that, I always give them fruit. I realized that today the dog might have broken something on the altars and eaten the fruit; it was apples and strawberries. Won't Hermes or the other gods be angry that the animals are eating their offerings? My 7-month-old cat, Deimos, loves to drink the olive oil from the altars, and I don't know what else to do, haha.

Les explicó, tengo 17 este año 18, voy turno noche a 4to año abandoné por problemas de salud mental desde los 14 hasta los 16, hace unas dos semanas mi papá sufrió un ACV, era la única fuente económica que teníamos en mi casa, aunque esta vivo, pero es prácticamente un nene chiquito al que hay que ayudarlo en todo y se que tarde o temprano va a fallecer porque ya es una persona grande igual que mi mamá, mi papá cobra bastante, mi mamá no llega al salario mínimo o capaz si, ni idea, yo dependía de mi papá, pero él no esta en condiciones y aunque ya cobró a mi me dieron solo 30mil para aguantar desde hoy hasta el 31 de agosto, lo cual, me parece algo imposible pero fuera de eso y m desvíe de tema, puedo conseguir aunque sea algún trabajo de medio tiempo siguiendo los estudios y que recomiendan? Yo la verdad se hacer algunas cosas, me gusta mucho dibujar, hice cuadros, tengo título de tatuador y no es muy relevante pero se tocar violín jajaj, en fin, que recomiendan para tener algún trabajo de medio tiempo? Es posible conseguir algo?

Hello, I have doubts or something like that, well, I'll explain to you: my father suffered a stroke recently, he is already an elderly person, I know he no longer wants to keep living, because he practically looks like a little boy, in bed, he speaks but cannot be understood, etc. The doctors told us that either he would live with sequelae or he would pass away. I am not going to lie to you, I am doing badly. Yesterday he went into surgery, I started praying to Hermes, Asclepius, and Apollo. Luckily everything went well. Aside from that, I feel bad for asking Hermes that if my father passes away, he can guide him and receive him well. And also, I have another doubt: it turns out my father was the only source of income for my mother and me, now that he can no longer be that and my siblings only want to give things to my mother, is it wrong if I ask him to help me find a job or get a job? Is Hermes the right one or should I ask Hephaestus? I really don't know, I feel like these are somewhat silly doubts, sorry.

tengo 17 años, este año 18, soy una persona que le cuesta salir porque siente que lo miran, los lugares con mucha gente no me gustan, tengo sobrinas de mi edad, sobrinos también menores u mayores que yo, todos o casi todos tienen o tuvieron pareja, tienen muchos amigos y salen siempre, después me veo a mi, con 17, nunca tuve amigos, tal vez 1 o 2, durante solo unos meses tuve un grupo de 4 amigos mis primeros amigos a los 12 años en 2021 solo me duraron 2 semanas, pero me prohibieron salir porq mi ex cuñado dijo q me vio con esos chicos siedo 'putx' desde ahi no pude relacionarme más, poco y nada, en 2021 también con 12 fui abusado por mi ex cuñado, me costo más empezar a hablar con gente, abandone desde 2023 hasta el año pasado el Colegio por miedo ya que todo 2022 como no me creyeron mi ex cuñado vivía en mi casa y yo lo veía siempre desde las 00 hasta las 02 o 03, fuera de eso, me desvíe de tema, me siento no se, raro, nunca tuve novio formal, intente algo con alguien pero me gritaba y pegaba, me siento raro ver como mis sobrin@s tienen amigos, parejas, salen a fiestas o cosas así y yo en mi pieza encerrado escuchando musicales o leyendo cosas de mitología griega o así y donde vivo la gente es los típicos 'villeros' no tengo nada en contra pero la mayoría te mira mal por no ser igual, fuera de eso, me volví a desviar de tema, siento que no vivi nada toda mi infancia y adolescencia, desde los 9 hasta los 16 sufri grooming, siempre me en cerré mucho en el Internet, sufri bullying toda la primaria y la cuarentena siento que me dió vida no se porque, pero siento que desde los 16 hasta ahora hice mucho y ya me canso, o sea, me drogue y bebi demasiado aunq ya ni lo hago, siento que la gente se aleja si le cuento estas cosas o le habló de lo que me gusta como tocar violín o dibujar música o escuchar, tal vez me ganan los traumas jajaj

​"It turns out that my Christian mother—who already knew I am a Hellenist because I had told her and explained that I have altars—was sleeping in my room because my brother was staying in hers. One morning, around 9:00 AM, another brother of mine came over. He is also a Christian, but one of those who is completely rigid in his religion. I had altars set up for Ares, Phobos, and Deimos. On the altar for Phobos and Deimos, I had a cup of wine, and on Ares' altar, an apple. My brother asked me who I was offering the wine to, and my mom heard him. She told me to take it all down, saying it was 'of the devil' and that the cup I was using was hers. I told her no, that I had bought that cup myself, but she insisted it looked like the one used for her Holy Communion and demanded I give it to her. I hid the cup, but when I saw it again later, it had been broken. Aside from that, my mother grabbed a pair of scissors and tried to stab me; for some reason, she also tried to cut the television cable. She started praying, and now she wants to take me to church, force me into prayer, and enroll me in some church program where you aren't allowed to leave. My father, who saw my altars, said he was going to throw them all away, that I was starting to look like my 'prostitute biological mother,' that I am just a mistake, and things like that. Given this context, I have a question: Is there a way to have more discreet altars, or is it possible to pray to them without altars?"

Can I ask Hermes for help to have sales?

English is not my first language so forgive any errors, anyway, lately with so many tarot readings directed at me, the Sun Card comes up a lot when I ask about other Deities. Asking Phobos and Deimos if there was another God who wanted to tell me something, the Sun Card came up, and it's not the first time it's come up, as if Apollo wanted to tell me something. Even in a reading I did when I lit a candle for Tiresias (yes, I think it's weird to be devoted to him), Apollo appeared. I don't have an altar for him or anything, is he trying to tell me something? Almost all the readings talk about the same thing, that he will help me have clarity, to see the truth.

Lately I haven't been keeping up with lighting candles or praying to Hermes, I'm dealing with too many family problems and at times I feel like I don't deserve to go on. Besides that, Hermes might get angry with me for neglecting him or for lighting other altars like those of Ares, Phobos, and Deimos, but not his altar? ╥﹏╥