u/hermithefrogs

I’m 23 and a second-year law student.

In less than four years I’ve gone from Cinema to Graphic Design to Law. Ever since I was a kid all I ever really wanted was to be a writer. When I studied Cinema, I was genuinely happy, but I was also constantly stressed about money. I couldn’t find work, and halfway through the degree I realized the industry was brutal, most of the friends I made there graduated and are unemployed now.

After that, I tried Graphic Design because my sister works in IT and told me it was a more stable field with a lot of opportunities. The problem is, I’m terrible at drawing, and the whole experience just made me feel stupid and out of place, so I dropped out. (No regrets though I met my best friends there.)

Then came Law School.

I actually took my sweet time deciding. What I really wanted at the time was Psychology because the only thing I’m as passionate about as writing is understanding the human mind. But my mom basically told me that “a sick person can’t help other sick people,” and since I already struggle with my own mental health issues (many of them tied to my relationship with her if i’m being completely honest) I got discouraged.

So I chose Law. Partly because I thought I could learn to like it, partly because it was my mom’s dream to become a lawyer and I thought maybe making her proud would make it worth it, maybe it wouldn’t be that bad.

It is that bad.

I’m two years in now, and I honestly hate it.

Not in a “I’m stressed because law school is hard” kind of way I mean I deeply, genuinely hate it.

A little under a year ago I got an internship reviewing contracts for a very specific company, and while I’m grateful and happy to be making money, I dread the work. Some days I just stare at the screen and feel miserable.

Now I keep thinking about switching majors again, but there are so many things stopping me…

My internship depends on me being a law student, and I don’t know if I could transfer internally to another department.

I have a history of quitting things when they get hard, so I keep questioning if I truly hate this, or am I just running away because I feel incompetent. I genuinely can’t tell if this is my intuition or i’m self sabotaging.

My parents would lose it. Even though I pay for my own tuition and have my own income, I still live with them, and they already see me as unstable and incapable of sticking to anything.

This whole situation has been eating away at me lately, and I can’t really talk to anyone about it. I feel trapped between resenting my way into a career in Law and becoming “the quitter” again.

I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore.

As they start production next month (I think, I might be remembering wrong) I wanted to ask if anyone has any early predictions or any thing they’d like to see in season 3 :)

I want to start this off by saying NEITHER of them is fit to run the ED alone.

I’ve seen a LOT (and I mean a really exhausting amount) of discourse these past couple of weeks about how Al-Hashimi is a better fit, or how Robby is. And it’s so damn frustrating because people are totally missing the point.

Neither of them should be running that place on their own!

Yes, Robby was an absolute asshole in the way he handled her absence seizures. No question. But that doesn’t mean he was entirely wrong. She cannot be running an emergency room while actively having episodes. It doesn’t matter if she was seizure free for over a decade, they came back, and they came back mid-shift nonetheless. That’s SO dangerous. For patients, for her, for everyone. And she knows it.

People are reducing her reaction to just being mad at him. That’s not it. She’s frustrated with herself too. She’s dealing with something she can’t control, and on top of that, she knows he’s not entirely wrong. But apparently, saying “Robby had a point, he just handled it beyond terribly” is a crime.

And let’s be for real this has NOTHING to do with her competence. She’s proven over and over again that she’s brilliant at what she does. She really is. We have all seen it. But pretending she’s currently fit to run the ED like this? That’s not supporting the character, that’s just straight up denial.

And Robby’s in no position either. He’s suicidal, burned out, dealing with PTSD, having panic attacks, and taking it out on everyone around him. He’s snapping at staff, losing control/patience, and creating a hostile environment. That is NOT leadership. The ED can’t function properly with someone like this running the place.

They are BOTH flawed.

That’s the whole point.

She has qualities he lacks. He has qualities she lacks. They’re mirrors of each other, whether people want to admit it or not.

And what people keep failing to see is that they work better together. They balance each other out.

You cannot carry something like that chaotic ass department alone, you need someone beside you.

I really, really hope they keep her next season and actually let them be a team.

(Sorry for the vent, I know some people may think this is obvious but apparently media literacy is dead and i’m pissed)