Is there any hope?
I've only started posting yesterday in a different subreddit because this is really the end for me. My best friend, who I've known for the better part of 10 years, graduates soon. I plan to end my life afterwards.
We should be graduating together. Instead, she is, and I'm not, because in middle school i made a choice to start being difficult. Ruined my life. Haven't been in school since then, wasted away alone in my room, doing jackshit. Everyone gave up on me. Nobody forced me to do anything, nobody helped, I isolated myself for years. I'm 18 now and all that time i spent thinking about killing myself has finally reached its tipping point. Everything in my life has been passively going, and now I'm making my decision.
Can nothing really be done? Did I truly ruin my life before it even started? The most I've done in the past eight years was get my government ID at the beginning of this year. I've been contemplating ending things after i turned 18 and reality really started setting in. Figured i'd try to post and see if literally anyone thinks there's hope. I don't think there is. I plan to od sometime soon after giving my friend and parents one last good memory.