u/highs2lows22

If we're on the path to elucidation, wouldn't the best play for the things running the simulation to have us killed before we achieve full gnosis or whatever else is needed to fully exit? It can't be that hard to script a drunk driver or a murderer into your path, they're in every town and city across the world. If it takes 100 hours of meditation/lucid dreaming/oobe to reach the point where you're not just walking through the tunnel of light after death the same way you go along with whatever insane scenario is playing out in any given dream you have at night, then why not just kill the person who seems to be waking up some time before they hit the 99 hour mark? It's not like this subreddit is a secret. Archons, aliens, reptillians, they all have to know about it. They run the websites, they have all the user data. The obvious answer would be to just kill every user in here so they're dazed and confused and reincarnate into a brainless normie who never even thinks about the prison planet.

Is the answer that we already have everything we need and they don't kill us because we're still generating loosh or whatever while we're still alive?

I've been trying to meditate since everyone says to do it, but I feel like I don't really get it. Even just looking up "how to meditate" returns about a dozen different types of meditation for a dozen different purposes.

I can clear my head and sit in a chair in silence without any thoughts or feelings for 20 minutes but I don't exactly feel elucidated after. I don't feel any closer to the divine spark. I can examine thoughts and feelings as they come but it doesn't really do anything.

I think I'm thrown off by the lack of a goal. What exactly does meditation do? What am I supposed to get out of it? If I just do it then it feels like sitting in place for 20 minutes, which feels purposeless.

Everyone talks about it like some elucidating thing and I don't know if I just haven't done it enough or if I'm doing the wrong kind of meditation or what.

I hear about the tunnel of light and the grid and the holes and it all sounds well and good, but then I hear about how you can forget everything soon after dying anyways no matter how much studying you've done here, or that your thoughts are unshielded and so much as thinking consent is enough to trap you, and there are conflicting instructions like turning away from the light and going into the void, turning away from the light and going into yourself, turning away from the light and creating a portal, turning toward the grid and finding a hole.

Frankly, I don't know what to believe or what to do. Everyone says to meditate, but I just sit in silence for 20 minutes and nothing happens. Everyone says to astral project, but I don't know how to do that. Everyone says to lucid dream, but I can't do that even if I keep a dream journal and do everything I've seen people suggest.

Maybe there's something wrong with me. Maybe I'm a golem that thought it was a divine spark.