My Boyfriend Left
So I'll just start out by saying I've never done with so sorry for any errors.
My boyfriend left. It's the 4th of July. My boyfriend came over to hangout for the day with my kids and I. We spent the day school clothes shopping for my oldest. We made plans to go over to my sister's cousin house at five and stay and do fireworks ( we're in tx so the sun doesn't set till 9 ) I figured we'd stay for an hour or two doing fireworks and then head home and maybe he would stay the night since it'd be so late. He lives 30 ish minutes away.
While we were laying down taking a nap in-between shopping and going to do fireworks he drops that when he gets back he's going to go hangout with his friend who lives 45 minutes away. Basically he wants to go drink and hangout with his friend. It wouldn't be a problem but we hardly ever get to see each other. Maybe once a week.
I have already told him I miss him and I've wanted him to stay. He said he'll just see his friend later and I told him no. I'd rather him go.
I've expressed to him that my life isn't as "exciting" as his. I've been a single co-parenting mom for about 2 years now and I recently just got a new job so I don't really go out much. Not that I wouldn't love to on my down time but I'm just genuinely broke. My kids needs come before my want "to go have fun". I'd rather spend my time out with them anyway.
Fast forward we go to my sister's cousins house. We are having a good time kids are playing. We're outside it's hot af. I have one beer over a soild period of time then I eat and have one more beer after food. When I tell y'all I felt sick I felt sick. My upper torso was hurting like it was in a knot. I went in the house and threw up. Come out told him I was ready to go and we got everything together and left.
When we pulled up I ran inside and threw up again. He got the kids out of the truck put on a movie for them brought me a water and told me he was going to head home.
This is where my feelings really get hurt. We've known each other for 9 years. We never started dating till about 6 months ago and I've honestly never been happier.. but lately I get the feeling that he feels obligated to spend time with me. We have talked about marriage in the future and when I think about my future husband I don't want a man whose going to leave maybe 5 minutes after I've gotten done throwing up my insides.
I guess what I'm asking is how do I address this with him? He knows I'm upset but he doesn't even know why. Am I being dramatic? I'll answer questions for more context.
Edit' I should have been more clear. I told him to go ahead and go to his friends before the fireworks at my sister's cousins house .. because I knew we'd be getting back so late and I would rather him be safe and not drive at night (holiday with people drinking and all) When I told him to go that was an internally different conversation in between shopping and hanging out with family. I didn't tell him to leave when we got home and I was sick.