It never got better
I took a bath, doomscrolled on Reddit. Read about how unhappy people are, how unaffordable life is, how they have to work two jobs and put every penny towards bills or debt. I realized I can’t do that. I physically and mentally can’t. I don’t want to, it isn’t fun or fulfilling. I can’t live like this.
I’m a failure through & through. 26, can’t drive, never had a relationship, unemployed, broke, being sued for debt, no friends, no attachments.
So, I’ve come to the decision that push has come to shove, so to speak. Not immediately, but inevitably and eventually. I’ll be using the button, on an escape pod out to paradise.
I have come to terms with this decision. I’ve been depressed for over 10 years. My depression ebbs and flows, but is always in the background. Things have just gotten worse. Life isn’t enjoyable or fulfilling, I have no hopes or aspirations.
Gonna start getting my affairs in order & make some plans soon. Being a procrastinator has saved my life a few times lol.
Once it is socially acceptable, I will be calling it quits. I’m closing this chapter. I hope I’ll see you in the next one.