No connection with my mom anymore
My mom was diagnosed with MCI almost 3 years ago and has now progressed to an Alzheimer’s diagnosis based on blood work for p tau.
She’s 61 years old and this has progressed quickly. She calls my dad and brother on repeat. If they don’t answer, she just calls again over and over again. I don’t think she knows who my sister and I are anymore in relation to her.
She complains that we don’t do enough things as a family and then when we do, she just complains that she wants to go home. She constantly questions my dad on if he still loves her and if they’re still together/married. She has a history of cheating on my dad.
We set her up with a caretaker/someone who can provide her companionship 3x a week and my sister and I take the remaining 2 days to be with her while our dad is at work. It’s exhausting though as we are trying to work from home while also supporting her.
I feel like my mom died 3 years ago. She feels like a distant family member who is just uncomfortable to be around. She’s not even close to the same person anymore. I can’t come to her for anything and as a woman about to start her own family, it’s heartbreaking to feel like you can’t go to your mom for advice even when she’s still walking this earth.
I’m not sure what the point of this post is. Maybe to vent? Maybe to see if anyone else feels the same? Am I a terrible person?